¿what am i doing here?
i care so much about what other people think of me, and i shouldn't but i do. i care so much. i care when lots of people dislike me. when people say mean things about me when they think i cant hear. i am quite lost. im not really sure who i am. i just want to escape. from myself. i want to run away but my problem is that i ( Read more... )

march break is over. reality is tomorrow.
and i dun wan to face it. im so sick and tired of people saying one thing to your face and assoon as your not around, its nasty words. i dun even know who to trust ne more. i have no trust. no faith in anything.
im tired of being the onli one to try. im tired of giving a fuck what people think of me. im ( Read more... )

ive noticed i always seem to get myself in trouble the day before a holidya/break...
so yesterday i came to school.. and no one was there so i decided to write a note and forge my mothers signature, and i handed it un. it worked. so i left after first period. me nat and amy got a ride to nats house from alanna who just got her g2 thursday. so we get ( Read more... )

¡¡¡iM gUnNa PaRtAy My AsS aLl BrEaK!!!
BEEEEEEEEEEEEEMMMMM

stressn big timez gee.
loftin bouh skool. wana get drunk i prefeer dat ova weeed now eh? fuckn gees. im not being a hoe. wtf. i need ta bounce up outa hurr. fo reel. dun wit all dis. jus wan out. ma gurls man? sup... feels lke u haten on me. whitby, brooklin. tdot wheres de loven?
fuck dis shit man. was de deal?! im gun. nuf <3

i am so fucking mad!
how the fuck can he be dating another fucking girl already??!!! I FUCKING HATE YOU!
i hate that i can never be happy, nothing can ever work for me!
i hate that i always liek guys and they just want booty call!
i hate my fucking mother! FUCK YOU!
I NEED TO MOVE! I WANT TO GET THE FUCK OUT OF HERE!
i hate my fucking school. i hate the ( Read more... )

i try to keep my mind off things, but everything always manages to fuck up. im sick of everyone telling im a soldier and im strong. im not! i cant take it anymore. fuck peter. fuck everyone. i dont kno who totrust. so many differnent peopletell me differnt things, JUST FUCK OFF! kiian wont stop pissing me off. FUCK. i hate my mom, i need to YELL ( Read more... )

peter broke up with me. i cried a lot. i drank and got drunk last night, and then i cried myself to sleep. i woke uo this morning and cried again. on the way tp school on teh bus, i cried some more. at school i cried once again, and then i skippd 3rd period and got drunk. and i came home ana cried again.
now i dont care. i cant cry, im tired of ( Read more... )

people say that everything in life happens for a reason.
that with every action is a purpose. but even the most unfair actions dont feel as if that meaning could possibly be worth such pain or sacrifice.
it always takes so much to realize how precious one person truley is. how much one person can possibly mean to you. and we forget that in a second ( Read more... )

recent events have lead to much contemplation.
they say time heals all wounds. but did anyone ever notice that time is never ending? time is always going to be there. even after the world implodes, time will still exists. words and sayings, ideas and beliefs are all created to create comfort. to make people feel safe. what is to feel safe? to feel ( Read more... )