I never knew one person could arouse so much emotion from another person without directly and intentionally doing so. And they are such intense emotions... on both ends of the spectrum. UGH.

I texted Jake and told him that he had to tell Holland and I what he wants for his birthday. He responded: "Tell Holland I want an anime movie called 5 Centimeters Per Second or Princess Mononoke. You on the other hand....surprise me ( Read more... )

Trying hard to speak, and ( Read more... )

I literally think that I like Jake so much that it has driven me to hate him.

It's not working out well. He's angry with me now. UGH.

Apparently everyone can tell something is wrong with me ( Read more... )

I just got home from talking with Jake.

We sat in the parking lot talking for at least 2 hours.

UGH. There is almost no one else I could talk to for that long. I hate feeling so at ease with him now because I know I was so uptight when we were going out. WHY DID I DO THAT?

It reeeeeeeeally SUCKS when you can only talk to one person about something. When there are other close friends that you can't even MENTION something that means a lot to you to.

ugh.

UGGH ( Read more... )

OH MY GOD.

I just changed my air freshener in my bedroom... and it is bringing back memories like NOTHING ELSE... INTENSE memories...

I must have had this scent when I had talks with Jake.. because almost every time I smell it I get pretty intense feelings. Oy.

This weekend I am going camping for Justin's girlfriend's birthday. I have never been camping before. Oy. I am scared/excited/dreading it all at the same time. We are going to Shades State Park [which is sorta by Crawfordsville]. It is supposed to be REALLY hot and rain and possibly STORM. It could be potentially AWFUL, basically ( Read more... )