emo rant

[graphic_mess]

I really really really really really am sick of being tied down. I feel.. like.. I'm going to burst and it's leaving me with this uncomfortable feeling at the pit of my stomach. There are so many things that I want to do in my life and I feel like I have too many things in the way to do those things. I want to lose weight, I want to have more

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Dear Shane;

[krissibear]

I wish I knew the right words to say, the best advice to share, but I have nothing that would help right now. For I have been in the same rut you seem to be in, though I want to accomplish and get in different places different than your's, I've constantly felt no matter how hard I try to work myself out of this hole I've found myself in, the way out keeps getting farther and farther away from my hands to reach for. I wish I could help you, and I mean this because for you I am always concerned. Which is probably just because you and I haven't talked nor been as close as we used to in ages. We talk every now and then, but we both have these high goals in life were both trying to accomplish, and I just find us losing touch because we both have other things we've been trying to do lately and we've been hella busy, I'm sure. Even so, you're still that best friend I met years ago. The same great guy that was always there for me when times I thought were rough, were never as rough as I thought now that I look back on them. But even so,

Re: Dear Shane;

[graphic_mess]

I definitely miss you soooo much, and you coming out here would mean the world to me.. considering the closest to meeting eachother has been through a webcam. A road trip would be awesome, but it can't happen until after this year so I hope you decide to fly out.. I'm buying a jetta at the end of this year on my b-day, so, yeah. lol I really don't want you to worry about me, you know I get my "emo" or depressed moments and I do honestly get over the things that get me depressed after a while. I think about you more than you know, I just don't call or message because I don't have the time. This passed year and a half has been hell because all of the things I've been trying to juggle. Last year was sophomore year and I was taking seven classes, holding a job, and trying to keep in contact with my friends.. this year, junior year, I'm taking 5 classes and cheerleading.. so I constantly have something holding me back. Cheerleading is over in february, but I think I'm doing it next year.. but I also want a job so I can save for my jetta.

Re: Dear Shane;

[krissibear]

and I completely understand where you're coming from dear.. you and i both have had a lot going on between us both ever since your going to highschool and my returning back to school from being homeschooled. But even so, we've both kept some kind of contact with eachother - not necessarily like we used to be but atleast we are still semi-close. I'm just glad that things seem to be getting better and better for you - sure, you're going to have your hold me backs and let downs but i'm telling you.. each and every single one of them will be worth it in the end

[revina]

first *hugs* second, before when you used to complain about your weight it bugged me because you were jsut sitting on your ass complaining, now i dont think anyone has the right to say anything about it other than positive things cause you are doing something about it. and good for you for being able ot say i dont like my weight, im going ot do cheerleading nad start eating better, and actually do it. and dont worry youll get out of Davis, it jsut might take a bit longer than you want.

[graphic_mess]

Thanks for feeling that way, it means a lot that you read up on me through my journal, lol.. since we can't really talk anymore since you're like 5,000 miles away. I REALLY am trying to lose weight.. I've lost about 10lbs now so, weee. Yeah, thank you for everything ♥

[revina]

Oh im glad, yes i defiantly am reading up on everyone ot keep tabs on whats happening back home. and 10 pounds! yes! keep going, i hate here, there is such a huge lack of physical activities and the food is so much heavier, ive gained about 15 pounds! so i feel your pain.