So as if things couldn't get worse, my fucking car didn't pass smog. $300 part I obviously don't have the money for. I'm most likely going to a dealership that breaks people deals for first time buyers (aka toyota or ford) and going to buy a brand new car. I already don't have money - why not have even less right? Erg. I applied at Wells Fargo so I ( Read more... )

Death. It's horrible.. and I'm really sick of it. I lose everyone and anyone that's close to me. I guess that's life.. but can't I be selfish and wish that I could get to see everyone for a few minutes longer? I have lost SO many people that are close to me.. whether it be friends or family. I'm sitting at work, gaining overtime waiting to leave.. ( Read more... )

It's morning and I'm exhausted. lol. Work again, as usual. I need to find a new job, my hours are about to get cut again and I just started working full time again. :[ I can't afford to not work full time anymore. I'm broke. It's frustrating to know how much farther I could be in life if I was working full time. Looking for a new job, pronto. My ( Read more... )

I haven't been up this early in quite a while. Whether it be to work or not, I'm still wide awake and looking into my life with a new perspective. I'm ready to do away with this weight I've been dreading. It's never too late, and people need to realize that. I'm ready to drop back down to where I was and continue losing. I dropped 45lbs last summer ( Read more... )

Today was definitely good. Got started off kind of late.. But hey, it works. Went to see Harry Potter 5 with christopher and alyson and it was amazing. Although it wasn't exactly like the book, it was pretty damn good. I was discussing the movie (before I went) with chris' friend (who's back home in indiana) sara and she told me that its the ( Read more... )

We're in our own place now. No worrying about other people being nosy and telling us what to do. No parties to wake us up at 3 in the morning because high school kids are laughing so hard they're throwing up the alcohol they've consumed over previous hours. Complete freedom. Older friends of ours refer to this place as "Americana Armpits", however ( Read more... )

I wish I was the type of person that could jut give everything up and disappear. To pack all of my things up and be gone; and not feel guilty. My life would be so much easier if I had that much control. I work at things and don't know how to let everything go. I have a huge problem with wanting control of everything in my life. I I I. Me. Me. Me. I ( Read more... )

ecrive mais mon mari est regarde. Je suis ecriver demain.

I've been thinking about the whole Chris and Cassandra being friends thing, and I got REALLY upset last night. I don't even know how to begin to explain how it makes me feel. Whenever I get upset about it, Chris ignores it or throws a fit and Cassandra tells me she won't be available for a few days. I understand that it's not fair for me to tell ( Read more... )

MY FUCKING BODY.
Can I have a new one please?