Gosh, I don't even know why I'm doing this. It's been who knows how long. I'm sitting here, in Christian's room.. it's 2:13am and I'm wide awake; I can't sleep. I'm back in independent study, hopefully graduating by middle december to the end of december early january. I'm working 3 days a week at Jamba Juice, and I've quit cheerleading. Things in ( Read more... )

This past year I've been such an asshole. I've been judging every person I see. Even friends. Every single person that my eyes happen to glance upon have to have a flaw. I pick apart every single person. What the fuck is wrong with me? People constantly give me weird looks when I say things and now I know why. I'm a fucking asshole.. and it took me ( Read more... )

I think it's time to start clean.. again. I say this at least every six months. Quite pathetic, I know. But this time, I'm for real. I'm waking up at 8:30 tomorrow to go to the gym. I'm gonna start taking my diet pills again. I'm going to start eating smarter. I'm still 25lbs less than I was in January.. but I want to lose so much more. I'm sick of ( Read more... )

I'm back to my old self. Life just never seems to keep speed bumps out of my way. I don't think I can trust anyone anymore. I know you're not supposed to give up on trusting people after one person, but when it happens every time you get in a relationship.. Shouldn't you give up? iuno. I don't know what to think anymore.. I'm numb again and it's ( Read more... )

So wow. It's been forever since I've updated.. or changed my layout.. so I changed it. Uhmm, life is so different now from the last time I updated. I moved home after like 3 days of living with Cassidy, I live in West Sac now (my family moved, yet again), I'm no longer BEST FRIENDS with Cassidy, I just broke up with my boyfriend, I work at Jamba ( Read more... )

Or.. for now anyways. The other night my family and I got in a huge fight about how I spend too much money and how I need to get a job and stuff.. and it was stupid.. so I left and went out for the night, got high to get my mind off of things, and then went home. Nothing was wrong, no one knew or anything. Well, the next day, I had plans to go to ( Read more... )

I really really really really really am sick of being tied down. I feel.. like.. I'm going to burst and it's leaving me with this uncomfortable feeling at the pit of my stomach. There are so many things that I want to do in my life and I feel like I have too many things in the way to do those things. I want to lose weight, I want to have more ( Read more... )

·No Smoking
·No Fast-Food
·No Soda
·No Coffee (Starbucks)
·No Jamba Juice
·Find a Boyfriend
·Stop Being Depressed
·Buy 2004 Jetta
·Buy iBook or PowerBook
·Buy New Cell Phone
·Buy New iPod
·Become an Optimist

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So I'm sitting in MGM Suites in Vegas right now.. chilling on Cassidy's laptop 'til it gets a lil later and then we're going on some roller coasters cuz we're niggers like that. I'm gonna go buy a hoody today, which, makes me pretty happy because I need a new one. The view here is awesome, NY NY is right outside my window, along with it's sweet ( Read more... )

I'M SEVENTEEN NOW! Now people can card me at the movies and I can show them my i.d. and get in! yay! lol. RATED R MOVIES BITCHES! ANyways, so I'm kind of freaking out because in about a year and a half when I graduate from highschool, I'll be moving to L.A. and ahhhhhhhhhhh. Wow.. So I'm yeah.. I'll be officially an adult next year. How fucking ( Read more... )