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Today you said this to me:

"I don't know why I stop myself. when you said you were trying to figure out what to do with yourself, I thought about asking you if you wanted to play a game or something.. but .. I dunno. I stop myself for some fucking reason. It's not that I don't want to, I just don't want to have to split my focus with you. (meaning ( Read more... )

I don't know what to do. I don't think I'll ever come first for you. I don't think I'll ever come first to him either. And that's a really depressing thought. I don't know what I wanted for my life, but this isn't it. I wish I was someone's priority.

You're ignoring me again. So I guess something happened. Again. I just so tired of it. And I have ( Read more... )

I thought you'd be interested in what my sister said. I was telling her about the whole situation and she said, "I've never been a huge fan of [your husband] ... and he HAS grown on me, but I've always thought you deserved better. Not only deserved somebody who treats you better and takes better care of you and doesnt leave you to make all the ( Read more... )

It's frustrating. It takes you so long to come back to me. And inevitably when you finally do, those two do something to cause drama and you retreat again. And I have to be happy with these bread crumbs I get. Because I'd rather get something than nothing at all. But I hate them both for what they do to you. To us. To themselves. I hate that we can ( Read more... )

I want to go to Fiji with you some day. It's become "our place" in my mind. And I really want to make that a reality.

Last night while we talked about life without each other, you told me if  I ever moved to make sure I somehow get my new address to you. So that some day you can find your way back to me and surprise me by knocking on my door. And if I happen to be married you hope he's every bit as wonderful as you are. I cried when you said that and I think that ( Read more... )