"..it was almost wonderful though.. wonderful in her bed, kissing, cuddling, her inside me, us both pretending we would talk again - and maybe it would work. and i think i honestly had a lot more hope than she did.. but it was all about the sex. i was her fantasy. she's told me that many times, but it was never real until she shut off the tv and ( Read more... )

This is almost fresh, something new; an entirely different feeling than what will be upon me when she departs. My world - upside down, but ecstatic now, forgetting because of the warm, humid air in the middle of the winter, a quick reminder of summer's promise. What does summer promise? It promises relief. I remember summer from long ago and ( Read more... )

I just got a chill and I wonder if that's how it will be when you're far away and I think I can feel you.

He kept saying, "I wish I wish I wish." Oh, how he wished. He wished so much that he spent each consecutive night wishing. He spent almost every spare second, breathing in silent, just wishing. He'd squeeze his eyes shut and wish with all his might. He did it so hard that it hurt his head. His blood vessels would pop out of his skull and his ( Read more... )

this is the worst i've felt in forever.this is the worst i've felt in forever.this is the worst i've felt in forever.

"you think you'll run away with my dreams. i laugh at this inside, but i am cowering."

i'm not laughing as loud anymore.

"so fuck everybody and this circle because i want out of it. i want everybody to know that i have gone absolutely CRAZY from seeing what they can't see.. and i want them to forget who they thought i was. i want you all to know that i'm just 'that crazy girl' from now on.. because i don't even have the desire to be part of your crowd. i don't ( Read more... )

the girl was falling apart. wasting away. and there was nothing she could do but keep her head up. keep her head up because fake smile and nod and wave to the others was what she did best. the only thing she did well, maybe. but that wasn't the point - or the problem. see the girl before: perfect posture, straight hair kept clean, blue eyes ( Read more... )

i turn around and i am insanely shocked by your maturity. i never thought you were capable.

it's okay if we don't always agree on the same paper or color or picture to place on our plain white walls. the important part is, we both agree that this blank state of nothingness has got to change.

i have been coming to this page quite often, staring at this blank box, but finding no words. i search through the words of others, seeking inspiration - but all i see are happy wishes for the year to come and kissing the past year goodbye. it is all just made up, really. january 1st was no different than december 31st (other than sleeping until ( Read more... )