Aikido rambling

[greatsword]

Comments

[dlevey]

Did they feel that your technique was sufficient to pass the test?

[greatsword]

I passed the test, just not to my own standards.

[dlevey]

We are, of course, our own worst critic. The thing that saved my sanity a number of times: they are the masters, and they know better than I. Doubting their judgment would be wrong, so I must trust that I am worthy. I know where I need to improve, and must do so, but from the top of the mountain you can see much farther than when you are half-way up.

so...

[learnteach]

why are you putting a challenge out
unless it is to devise a practice to fix it?

They think you are belt appropriate
and it is there job to judge.

Is taking on the judgement getting in the way?

Re: so...

[greatsword]

I intend to fix the problem.

I guess I had a better mental image of my own performance than the video shows - especially after getting fairly complimentary feedback. I don't know if this is really the standard for my level or if they're looking at my grey beard and putting me on the short bus.

Even if I don't post the video, I'll show it to you at some point and you should be able to see what's bothering me.

[klwilliams]

Congratulations. Every step up gives you a greater view of the path still to travel.