HAPPY THANKSGIVING EVERYONE!!!

i've been drinking glass after glass of pepsi all day. i'm loving it.

i didn't go to work today. sick day for me. kevin just came in my room and told me he doesn't want to call me mare anymore he wants to call me ms.carpenter. i guess i'll settle.

when am i gonna get mine?

you may not think so right now but, i think so. in the end we will see.

"my life shouldn't be like this". i tell myself that every day. i don't know how i got here. how can i wake up every day and be so unhappy? i feel like its the same day over and over again. i have lost so much in the past 12 months. i want my life back. i'm so diffrent. i constantly compare my situation to others and feel that if you haven't lost a ( Read more... )

most of the time, i feel alone.

it never ends. its who i am and it  never ends.

this day last year was the day my heart broke. i lost something inside me i will never get back. i lost you. all i have is memories and pictures of  you. i'll never have another kiss, a hug, an i love you more. not until i come home. i love you mom. i have a long way ahead of me. i have my life to live. i will think of you every day and i will ( Read more... )

this is not another song about two dysfuntional people in love with each other. and how it's just too bad they're so willing to abuse each other. and gladly accept it from the other. this is not a song about how it all came to an end. and how i hope that you'll still be my friend. because I don't. and how we can't wait to get back together because ( Read more... )

CHICAGO!!!

i leave if 3 hours. small brown bike here i come. i hope the hotel has a pool.

i got my hair cut on saturday. its short. just call me posh spice.

i'm done and i'm fine with that. i'm not letting anyone bring me down anymore. mistakes.

crystal, i miss you.

Step up and let others know where you stand and what your impressions are. You count, and others see that. Experience greater satisfaction through focusing on your goals. Your humor emerges. Tonight: Treat yourself and someone else ... you decide what.

this is funny because i have things i want to say but, i'm too afraid to say them.

this summer has been a weird one and it doesn't really bother me that its almost over.

wednesday is my mom's birthday. i think it hurts me so much to think about it because that was the very last time i ever spoke to my mom or kissed her or hugged her. my mom passed away on october 14th and august 22nd is the last time i ever seen her again. it ( Read more... )

i'm going to let things fall where they may.

no more looking back, just looking ahead.