never in my life have i drank alone.

until tonight.

life is fucked up.

and i hate it.

i was going to write about making the choice to go to wolf island or not at 9, which i still had to do... but then the people going (they were going for breakfast) came to get me (its 8) because they needed to go earlier b/c they need to be back by 1 (so do i.. if for a first meeting of getting a job at the common ground!!!) but then they came.. ( Read more... )

I think the reason i am feeling like the following is because i am overtired, and stressed out. but its still my feelings and therefore valid to me ( Read more... )

i love that livejournal saves a post if you closed the page and forgot to press the post button ( Read more... )

the headaches i had at first term from hitting my head are back full strength, today i cannot see straight. all the letters on this computer sort of have small fuzzy squiggly lines auraing them. fanstastic!!! it comes at the perfect time b/c wouldn't ya know i have exams starting friday and well its not making studying all that easy.

i have decided ( Read more... )

the headaches i had at first term from hitting my head are back full strength, today i cannot see straight. all the letters on this computer sort of have small fuzzy squiggly lines auraing them. fanstastic!!! it comes at the perfect time b/c wouldn't ya know i have exams starting friday and well its not making studying all that easy.

i have decided ( Read more... )

I have not posted here in ages.
I have a morning routine where i have my cup of coffee (or two) before doing anything else, and usually durring this period i write a morning email to mom, and check out a number of different blogs i read. I am working on changing the direction of the blogs i read (away from ones regarding weight and stuff) and i have ( Read more... )

God ( Read more... )

Hi Mom,

Its 1:41 here and i cannot sleep. My mind is a little overconsumed with thoughts. Arg.
I was trying to figure out what to do with them all, and decided to send you an email.

I am sorry that I am still cycling and going though this path. I don't like going through this and I feel bad for dragging everyone else through it as well. I do get a ( Read more... )

i'm a lover and whore. i've been rich and i've been poor. it's not over now. are the fortunes that we keep creating bonds around our feet? it's not over now! call me an ambulance, i'm fading away. i'm here overwhelmed. lost in the shuffle, i'll fall to the back. i'm here overwhelmed. i've walked down these streets with my head down in defeat. it's ( Read more... )