so here's whats been going on lately, least the most importent stuff anyways. i saw jeremy sunday. yep. thats right. i went to the mall with him. and well chris tagged along too. which was a good thing i'm thinking. cuz likes...omg....everything just kinda smacked me in the face. it was like the image of the little tiny stick person and the big ( Read more... )

well its 2003 and its already been quite exciting, let me tell ya. and well actually i am going to tell you. i think i'll back track and start off with some pre-2003 action. i'll start on new years eve. ok. i cancled work so i went over to dad's. and since i was so friggin tired i slept till that evening. and eric called me. he was like ya wanna ( Read more... )

stuff never stops happening. i would like just i dunno, a week, of no complications. none what so ever. i guess thats asking a lot. but its funny how the slightest little thing can complicate everything, ya know. like today instance. i missed basketball practice. i didnt mean to. last night when i set my alarm i forgot to turn it on apparently. and ( Read more... )

things are so so so so so so so so weird. k. yes. 1 thing is weird is how things repeat themselves. its more than weird, its kind of scarey. for instance, jeremy and i broke up, a couple guys seemed to of found interest in me. yes we all remember that even tho we'd like to forget, the bastard won't leave. funny, but thats happening again i think. ( Read more... )

god, i swear, i hate the way i make myself feel. i'm such a big fuckin dork. not sure why i let myself get on these big jeremy trips at all. the funny part of it all tho is that he's totally oblivious to these and well even if he werent he wouldnt care the slightest bit. well he might, but only in the pity sort of way. i hate that. i hate that i ( Read more... )

i really cant get myself to write in this. its odd, cuz its not as if i dont have anything to say. i have plenty to say. maybe thats the problem. i have to much to say so i just dont say anything. i think thats how things work with me. cuz i'm like that with so much. i just have a trillion things passing in my mind but i cant exactly pin very much ( Read more... )

god, i had the weirdest dreams last night. i cant remember them exactly anymore. but i'll put down the gist of em. the 1st one had jeremy in it. for some reason i was at kenny's talkin to him and i was like layin on the couch. and the room was backwards. like the couch usually faces the door but in my dream it didnt, it was on the other side of the ( Read more... )

a few things have happened since my last log. the most importent would be my latest wreck. i'm kind of sick of talking bout it so i'm not really gonna say much. but it was one of the scariest things that has ever happened to me. it happened on my way to take the act. and well i totalled the bronco and i spent the whole morning in the hospital. so ( Read more... )

when ever i think i'm ok and that maybe there is a slim chance that i'll start the process of moving on, something happens. it never ends. yesterday somebody from my school died. they had a wreck on their way to school and hit a bus. i didnt really know the girl or anything. she was in my grade. but her dying. it just made me think. especially the ( Read more... )

its been a hellacious past few days if i must say so my self. lets see satuday. god i knew saturday was going to be bad. i mean i knew it. it was posed to be jeremy and i's 3 year aniversary. so i expected all hell to break lose. but apparently i didnt expect enough tho. i went to the mall in hopes of finding dave. chat it up with him for a big. ( Read more... )