but i was filling out a music shuffle survey online... and when the question was asked "how is life going right now?" the song "a lonely september" by plain white t's came on. and i knew the song. but i never paid much attention to the lyrics until it came up for that question. and i am honestly speechless. i got the lyrics, simply to prove my ( Read more... )

I've been contemplating closing off this journal, and starting a new one. Not necessarily on livejournal. Maybe on blogspot.com or something of the sort. I don't know. This journal just has SO MUCH history on it. And part of me just wants to rid myself of it. But rather than deleting it all, because it is all still a part of me and MY history. But ( Read more... )

 Your practical side has had too much control over your decision making lately, and it's time for you to stop deliberating every single decision in such an analytic way. Life requires some leaps of faith, some risk-taking, and a little bit of luck if it's going to stay interesting. Try let go. Try not to control every single element of your day ( Read more... )

 gonna go and get my hair done, either tonight or tomorrow. colored and re-layered. lots of layers, and the color of cameron diaz's hair when she went brunette. its a gorgeous color. but my hair definitely needs something new. so i figured why not? my hair is a very light auburn color right now. i can't wait to get my hair done =]


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so, i'm in virginia beach until sunday the 16th. feels kind of odd... the first time home with no SOMEONE to sneak off to see. almost takes the excitement out of it. its a tad bit hard being back, i won't lie. there are so many memories in this house, and in this city. i never knew that a city so BIG could suddenly feel so SMALL. but i'm learning ( Read more... )

i've  been having a real hard time with my self confidence lately. and there's no reason for it. as conceited and ridiculous as it sounds... i have 4 guys going after me right now. and i'm not just saying that to seem all cool, because to be honest... it freaks me out, A LOT. there's ryan, chris, bobby, and another guy i don't want to get into ( Read more... )

 i am going to make a difference in someone's life someday. thats all i really want to aspire to do. i want to make a difference in someone's life. hopefully more than one. but i at least aim for one. have you ever seen the movie mona lisa smile? i want to be like katherine. i want to make such a difference in someone's life in just one year. ( Read more... )

But I have been trying to heal before coming back on here and writing. There is so much memory and past on here... I've just been avoiding it all... I have been keeping up with everyone's posts, however.

Well, its been a little over a month and I'm slowly but surely healing. Unfortunately it is going to take a long time to be completely over ( Read more... )

every woman's fantasy husban died today.
he was a fantastic actor.
and a wonderful person.
so sad he had to go so early.
you will be missed, heath.
we all loved you
<3


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 well its over. and you've lied to me for 6 months about being in love with me. and now you have feelings for someone else, already. i am completely crushed. and lost in life right now. i cant even explain it. every single second of the day i want to call you, i want to text you, i want to cry, and i want to just run home to you hoping you will ( Read more... )