I feel so bored lately. All of my friendships are changing and I feel that I don't matter sometimes. It's funny, you go from having everything to nothing. At least things are going well with Jonathan. I like him and find his company soothing. Work has been slow and annoying, I find my co workers to be double the dose of annoying. Dayana and her ( Read more... )

Time is, time has been ( Read more... )

The days turning over have been increasingly confusing. I am exhausted but I have no real aim. I know that in the past month I have lost my home but gained another, lost my love but gained another and there are nights I feel completely torn right down the middle. I speculate on plans, I have made every effort to go out and have fun but I do not ( Read more... )

I am so sad right now. It just seems that I can't get it right sometimes. I am so sensitive and last night Charlie broke my heart. I don't know where to go, where to move or what to believe in. I had a dream of Ronnie last night and I was excited to see him. I was explaining to Jaime how I wish at times I could go back in time, things were really ( Read more... )

I don't ever know what's going on in this heart of mine and I almost feel a fool. It is not a feeling of poor me or anything. I actually feel like I am a great girl, a great friend and I know that I am very loved. There isn't much lacking in my life right now, I don't wake up in the middle of the night any more haunted by my feelings. But something ( Read more... )

The days have been passing by normally, low stress has been on my side. I am just counting the days until I depart for L.A. 3 days and it feels good to know I won't be in the same place for 5 days. It is crazy how time keeps rolling out the door, like it doesn't exist and it doesn't ( Read more... )

The days have been passing by normally, low stress has been on my side. I am just counting the days until I depart for L.A. 3 days and it feels good to know I won't be in the same place for 5 days. It is crazy how time keeps rolling out the door, like it doesn't exist and it doesn't ( Read more... )

What a day it is today, what a memory that goes back in time. My mind can absorb so many memories ( Read more... )

God, I must have done something so right because I feel it is all coming back to me so abundantly. Last year, was oh so difficult and it is funny because I gave someone a chance. I let go of the intensity and went with life. It is hard sometimes to lose your feelings, to be completely lost in reality and compare it all to your inner sensitivities ( Read more... )

It is quiet around me, sometimes I want to hear noise. Quietness reminds me how busy my mind is, as it runs without purpose. It is like a lonely vessel, just looking for entertainment ( Read more... )