Going to the doc on friday. Im losing wayyyy to much hair, and my ears hurt, and im wayyy to tired. Hes gonna say..."Miss, you need to have sex." Then Im gonna have to accept that i look like shit cuz i should be having sex. Its not that i CANT its just that i only want him still. its a month away from being a year...no freaking way. I WILL ( Read more... )

I read these old entries and i sound like a nut job. wow. My life is SO not normal, i think i will take steps to make my life as normal as i can now. I dont want to be weird anymore, i really want a normal life. That sounds so funny right now. lol. all i can do is laugh at this moment. Good lord all that drama over someone ive never met? ( Read more... )

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THATS ALL...I FEEL BETTER NOW. K NOT REALLY. I THINK I JUST NEED TO HAVE SEX buuuuut WE ALL KNOW THAT WONT HAPPEN SO ILL JUST CONTINUE TO BE BITTER ABOUT IT. THANKS.

I think too much...thats all.

So hes not dead...BUT he wasnt in the hospital either. He was home the whole damn time. Apparently he passed out and has been sick ever since. But for some odd reason from 9pm til 1pm he couldnt text. what. the. fuck. ever. Im an idiot. oh wait that was established 2 weeks ago...even the random texts sucks. Then again i feel like shit for ( Read more... )

I expect to much from people, im a freak out ( Read more... )

i dont get it, i dont get how some people think...if i told you what i spent 5 hours doing on sat and about 3 on sunday you would think i was out of my mind...im freaking annoyed. I need to get over it, just let it fucking go. other a good note, was invited to a secret black eyed peas show this friday at midnight thas fun...hmmmm who should i

Its so damn cold in here i can hardly stand it. He wants to "tell me he loves me" THATS IT???? If he cant tell me, "hi im so fucking sorry can i come over and put my arms around you now?" then really i dont want to talk to him. He wont say that and all it will do is make me cry. I dont want to look weak AGAIN in front of him, nor will i let him ( Read more... )

this sucks, la la la la la ( Read more... )

I wish i knew how many people actually read this, i dont think he does. hed have to do alot of searching. Either way, if there is ONE thing i do for myself is not read his journal anymore. All it does is make me cry. I gave him my forgiveness, my heart went out to him again...dont freak IM NOT talking to him. I gave him his goodbye too...i let ( Read more... )