I need to make one thats private that only friends and family can read and know about...im not sure lj is the place for that. This one just has way to much history, prob not a good idea. Im annoyed I have to make this commercial. I know it could be worse, I could be a telemarketer, its just like damn, like i dont have a million other things to do ( Read more... )

Soo, last night I was telling one of the record reps about "my story" and how I got here and hes like, do you realize what you have accomplished? Do you have any idea how many people would love to live the kind of life you do? He's like be proud of yourself not many people can just leave with a car full of stuff and go somewhere, where they dont ( Read more... )

Seriously maybe its cuz they are young. i know i caused drama when i was young. but JESUS CHRIST! should i not say that??? anyway, i get random texts that make me laugh, NOW some girl thinks i did a radio break about her. what. the. fuck. thats funny shit to me right now. hi heres an idea DONT FLATTER YOURSELF. Im sooo not going to care ( Read more... )

FUCK!!! I have NEVER EVER in my life been frustrated the way i am now...its not even just sex. its sex with HIM!! There is no one else i want to have sex with...at.all. im so screwed. im a freaking virgin again ( Read more... )

who tells other people about my fucking insecurities ESPECIALLY that girl???? what the fuck. all i want to do is cry right now...that made it soo damn obvious they talk. i cant handle this shit anymore ( Read more... )

i have so much to talk about and no time to update this...i will later tonight need to get some stuff off my mind

Sooo i was going to annnnnd now im not...i have to cancel ( Read more... )

Ok, im backing off. All i do is bitch at him and he doesnt need it. I on the other hand am not a weird internet girl...i dont need the lies. Ill just let him do what hes got to do, whatever happens after that happens. It just sucks in the meantime. alot. ok, have to get ready for the firehouse...hi, i have had ummm NO sleep. hung out with " ( Read more... )

thats how many he has...and at 21. wow. its freaking sad and ya know what??? not a damn thing i can do...its almost annoying. like fuck just pick yourslef up and move on. I know oh wait i dont know the pain of losing a child but i do know that there is nothing he can do...nothing. Why would he just wnat to sit around and feel pain all day long ( Read more... )

I used to write about all these things he was telling me he was doing...and well NONE of them are true...whose a dumbass raise your hand???

*raises hand*