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star_green_eyes

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you know whats ridiculous? fat. its fucking stupid. being fat is stupid. why would someone let themselves get fat like me? i dont get it. everytime i go to the doctor i weigh fucking more. fuck this shit. fuck. fuck. i can't take it anymore. i can't fucking take it anymore. it doesn't even leave my mind when im trashed, like right now. everyone is ( Read more... )

do you ever feel so happy you want to cry? that is what matt did to me tonite. he made me so happy, that my eyes got watery. i love him more than i could ever say. i can't believe i have someone that i want and hope i can be with forever. (i know this is unrealistic, but it IS possible). i have never had someone that complimented me so well. who i ( Read more... )

ok... so i havn't been heard from in months ( Read more... )

the interent ( Read more... )

last night was very good times. after work the kids went to the pool hall and then we all went to double T. the kids being- matt chad ian mona dave dana jason. matt drank a LITTLE too much and passed out at his house wrapped around my leg. it was cute though. not like nasty drunk, like drunk where he was acting adorable. BUT then again i could love ( Read more... )

so guess what!? i am on my brand new laptop right now. so i will be able to update all the time again. i havn't been on in forever b/c my comp is completely fucked. which sucks. BUT worked out cuz now i have this fantatistic thing ( Read more... )

so spring break is over. and im not happy. who would be? you wanna know the most depressing thing about it? its not that i have to wake up to go there. b/c i can deal w/ that. its that i have realized that the most beautiful thing about graduating is that i won't have to see anyone. i missed not a single person over spring. break. (sorry if im a ( Read more... )

i havn't updated in weeks. all i have to say is that im happier then i've been.... ever ( Read more... )

laste nite vip w/ the kids. tonite centennial cue w/ the kids. there was a fight at cent. aaron and drew were in it. it was like MACKUMS ( Read more... )