So, what's going on out there? What's going on in here? Ah something that all needs to be sorted out. So, I have decided that bittersweet is the absolute worst feeling to have. Happy to where you can't enjoy being happy with out others being sad. What's the point anymore? Well.. I'll tell you the point. The point is for me to get what I want out of ( Read more... )

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So, i'm starting to think maybe it hurt more than I thought. Because, i'm loosing interaction skills with

Chris. It's just like.. yeah, okay I made the effort to call a few times, and it would always be to late

and I would go to sleep. But.. bleh. Because then today I guess he told me to call him, and I forgot..

and he ( Read more... )

gremlingirl65: Because, I know that even when we've both had our pit falls, our bumps, our boulder,s we've stayed on the same road, the same path. We've been able to sort through everything. I know I Love you, becasue I know that when I see you, when I feel you, that I feel it all ( Read more... )

I haven't updated my Live Journal in forever. It's wierd reading the begginings of my relationships with Lucas. Wow, never thought that writing that I would come back one day and look back to who I was, and of who I am now. I started looking out for myself, I've been in controlive realtionships so bad, but the things is. Hah, I wouldn't want out if ( Read more... )

Lets see, tomorrow I am going to Little Rock, Ar-Kansas. (as I call it) I'm going to a leadership retreat there. I get to stay in the doorms. I hope it is fun, for it is also my first adventure out on an airplane.. i hope i don't freak out. I'll just pull a Family Guy and ask the stewardess for bunches of pillows, then make a fort and put a ''no ( Read more... )

Mmmkay, lets see. My mood right now is not the best. Yesterday was fantastic ::melts:: Spending time with Lucas = #1 Stress reliever. I can't believe all of this stress is happening to a 15 year old just trying to go through High School in the shadow of her brothers. I don't get it. The time where I'll need my friends the most they'll be gone. Not ( Read more... )

Hell has swifted through the shadows of the so called reality and erupted in my life. The stupid fights in my house are driving me to extention. >_< You see, I live in a family where my two brothers keep there achivement titeles over my head, and i'm never allowed to surpass them, and a younger sister that gets away with anything under the sun. And ( Read more... )

on another note, lets look at what I have done over the weekend +1. Well I saw +1 because we were out of school on Thurs. On Thurs, I don't remember doing much, me and Jessika looked up some Kana,Gackt,Miyavi pictures, and I ended up going to sleep at a resonable time.
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Yet again, it seems like every time I post up on my journal that I say the phrase ''it's been a while since my last entry."Let see what is new with me... Well this week and next week's Friday we get out of school for stupid reasons.. A ''snow day'' and ''confrence day'' I think they should just put it at the end of our year, so we get out earlier, ( Read more... )

I must confess it has been a very long time since I have written in my journal. I just came back from Spring Break skiing trip with the YC. We went to New Mexico, it was pretty fun you could say. I look like a racoon!!! T_T My goggles are imprented in my face because it got sun-burned... yippee.. wait..no.. I got to see Lucas today. Man i'm so ( Read more... )