the time to be delicate is over, thank god. i've extricated myself from this situation slowly and carefully and now i'm allowed to run. i hadn't realized how much i had given away until i saw my hands tremble at the kitchen table ( Read more... )

"is there anything i can say that will make you attracted to me ( Read more... )

my life is getting fat in bed. my life would be totally different if i were 100 pounds.

i will be 24 for only a few more hours. we celebrated my birthday today and i was beligerent and rude because i it's my party and i can be. my sister decorated my parent's house where i have been stuck due to my broken foot and we went out to dinner. sam, christl and jason came over and we watched movies. jesse and melissa were not here and my foot ( Read more... )

i'm in pittsburgh and the house is quiet except for a cell phone ringing in one of the bedrooms. this place smells like death to me ( Read more... )

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do you know anyone who plays the drums? it looks like we need a new drummer.

our first show went better than expected, although it started off with a little controversy ( Read more... )

it is the eve of our first show and when i thnk about it i can feel my heart beat in my pinkie. i am so excited. i am finally living in the moment and there is nothing like it. we are all so silly, melissa and i shreiked at north third when we saw our name in the paper. i am thinking of everything that has brought to this point, this point being ( Read more... )

i am on the brink of something wonderful (knock knock knock on wood). i can feel it. the progress at which we are developing is almost astonishing and it will only get better. 3 shows in town and a tour and we've only been playing together a few months! i never realized what a gift i had. it doesn't just enable me my release, it bonds me to other ( Read more... )

i lost my virginity to a drummer when i was nearly 18 and he was 22. at the time i was in awe of him and he seemed like such a man. we stayed with one another for about 2 years after and when we parted i couldn't believe he was no longer mine. although he turned out to be an awful match for me he was a life altering experience. i admired him, i ( Read more... )