I am having anxiety dreams. This morning's edition included being late to school a mixture of high school/ college, while also not remembering where my locker was or what the combination was. Of course my books and "iPad" were also missing. The science class was about geology and I kept thinking "But that's not the science I want to learn!". The ( Read more... )

I'm feeling very much in limbo at the moment. I've healed a lot from the two surgeries, but am not completely healed. The surgery helped with some stuff immediately, but I am still experiencing some of the same symptoms. It is supposed to be three months before really knowing what the surgery has and hasn't done.

I find myself cataloging my aches, ( Read more... )

With what I have been through this last month.....shit the last six months....I have been laid off, degraded, felt broken and worthless. Have dealt with more constant physical pain than I knew how to. Been drugged with Valium and Percocet for a full month, because of my back being wrenched and forget to take my "regular" meds. The ones I rely on ( Read more... )

I hate winter. Ok, hate is a strong word. I dislike winter. Better? Hmph. If you don't know, I have depression. Which is normally no biggie because I take meds and they do the job they are supposed to. Keeping me up off the floor crying hysterically mainly.  But winter is a challenge even with the meds.  This year,  I'm out of work. And sick. And ( Read more... )

Has it really been over a year since I posted?  *shaking head ( Read more... )

Sorry about that. But I am whooped! And it is very annoying so I am blogging about it because it just sounds stupid for me to complain about it out loud. It's not like it's something new. But this is the first time in a while that I have gone full blast on something and used up all my energy. I was kind of hoping that since the endocrinologist didn ( Read more... )

It's old news, I know, but still...it was quite eventful and worth talking about.

There was a funeral mass and memorial for Uncle Jake and a wedding for Rob and Rosie and there were magic tricks!

R and I didn't make it to the funeral mass...honestly?  We woke up too late.  But we were able to go to the memorial get-together thing which was not ( Read more... )

I really need to go get glasses.  I think a large part of my headaches / migraines lately have been due to that.

I am realizing this because I came home early today because of a migraine.  Slept.  Woke up, watched a movie (Jumper...it has Darth Vader in it...he's so sweet...), came downstairs, and I thought to myself how nice it was that I was ( Read more... )

My Uncle Jake passed away this weekend.  We knew it would be coming, but it is still hard knowing that he is gone.  I was dealing with it though.  Pretty well actually.  No public outbursts or anything.  I think because we knew the cancer had come back, I had begun making my peace with it when I found that out.

But, my Uncle Jerry passed away this ( Read more... )

I had a bit of a panic attack this afternoon.  I'm not going to get paid for Holidays.  And MillerCoors has quite a few days off in the next couple of weeks.

I am able to work from 6am to 5pm on the days that there are MillerCoors employees there.  Which will be next Monday, Tuesday and Friday and then on the following Monday and Tuesday.

Yup... ( Read more... )