so i'm considering taking a break from school. i think i need it right now. need to get my shit together. i'll definitely finish this semester but i don't feel like i am doing anything with my life. i have a lot of fun but i feel like i am living too much in the moment. i don't know what i am going to do in the future. i know i want to travel ( Read more... )

i fucking hate little bitches!

so now it's time i updated everyone. a lot happened last thursday. by that i am referring to what happened downtown that night. so i got really really drunk and met up with ben and some people he was with. i also saw jeremy but only briefly, because he was with some girl and i didn't want to be a belligerent drunk. but later on when we were sitting ( Read more... )

i want to be in love. i read alisa's entries and it really does make me want to be in love. it seems like such a long time ago that the thing with gray happened. this thanksgiving is going to be really hard i think. i have a bad headache right now. i think its because of stress. i had an exam today and one tomorrow at eight in the morning. oh back ( Read more... )

so i definitely got blazed last night with steve, jeremy, steve, hunter, and april. it was cool but the entire time i just wanted jeremy to look at me and say "lets go" but NO, nothing, little bitch. gah....let me say it again....GAH. have i lost my second fuck buddy as well!?! can't wait for tomorrow night, college night! i haven't drank in over a ( Read more... )

back in wilmington but feeling down still. maybe i am just going through one of those "moods". whatever it is i want it to be done with already, i hate feeling like this.

in W.V. right now. i hate it. erin isn't like she used to be, which is completely understandable but it makes me wish that we could have everything back like it used to be minus all the bullshit that came from mom and kenneth. courtney has matured in a lot of different aspects but she is still the little bitchy sister i love. :-P mom is kenneth's ( Read more... )

so me and gordon are no longer "me and gordon" little bastard. he's in love with another girl and as much as i hoped i could be a girl he could care about, i was fooling myself. i know he cares about me, but just not in a way i want. which is fine, i can deal with that. but when i had this realization it felt as if i was being so stupid, but i ( Read more... )

no mooorrrreee tequilaaa.....well for at least a week or so, what a great night.... *pondering*

been long time bitches... :-P so courtney, mom, and kenneth are coming down to visit on wed. and are leaving sat. night or sun. morning. let's start the list of why i don't want this to happen. first and foremost i will not be able to go to the rugby party, which is going to be huge since everyone is moving out. that has been the "rugby house" for ( Read more... )