And this is why it is music. 

 Man so, I wonder...Am I always going to be searching?  Not truly at peace, always trying to be comfortable and do meaningful things at the same time ( Read more... )

 I am living my life right.  Being absolutely true with myself to the fullest degree.  Living every moment like I am in love and true to myself and my everyone.  I can't wait for tomorrow.  

 The concept of heaven reinforces the belief that life as it is now is sub par.

This is not the case, and it is not the way to realize what the religious folks call God.  We must accept everything for what it is; or at least accept that which we cannot change and learn to see the beauty in it.  Or something.  

 Dream worth noting:

I was at camp, for some reason.  I went to my spot, where my kids usually meet, and they started coming down.  I had all 14 of them, which is a lot, and also two more, ore maybe it was three, because some kids were with hanging out with mine.  We were at the Northgate area, across the street from the mall, and we all began to ( Read more... )

Fuck my phrasing.  Sounds so bad, so rushed.  I'm trying to fit everything into my speech.  Sounds ok now.  But I need to relax, just take a breather and listen...listen to my self.  That doesn't happen enough.  I'm trying to impress, and it's obvious on this recording.  Like, some shit is so unmusical.  Masturbation.  I hate that, I don't, ( Read more... )

I'm done.

They're born.  They live a nice life, a 3 bedroom house with their family, their parents works so very hard so the children can have this ( Read more... )

Remember that the best relationship is one in which your love for each other exceeds your need for each other.
The Dali Lama

That rings incredibly true to me right now.

There is a day.  On this day I will carry no keys.  No wallet, and no cell phone.  I will take the bus, take it from the Alemeda Del Prado bus pad in novato, california, and ride it to the stop right across from the metreon.  from there I will go to broadway, take the judah to the haight district.  Walk, maybe skate, down to haight street.  There I ( Read more... )