the way that my life is going now feels like a perfect example of this 'finding yourself' thing people always talk about ( Read more... )

no one... but TWO guys I've had interests in now have girlfriends

AND one of them is trying to tell me he doesn't and wants to 'visit' with me.

the other, well... i liked him the most. i'm too sentimental to not be hurt-ish... i mean, i really like(d) him.

i wish i had more to say.

i've been making a lot of romantic mistakes lately.
i have no other choice but to wait for a good one.

come out, come out, where ever you are ...

 MEN ARE SO FUCKING STUPID!

THAT IS ALL.

tomorrow may be one of the most life-changing things that moving to orlando will bring me... getting a car.

i'm excited to find out if i get it, because i'm hoping it will open up all the doors that i've ignored or have been locked because of my car situation. i love my roommates for helping me as much as they have, but it's time that i take care ( Read more... )

Let's see.

• I'm not ugly, right?
  
• I'm cool to be around
• I'm too focused on my own crap to be clingy
• I'm seriously not in the interest of looking for a boyfriend at this moment
• I take hints

I'm a very insecure person.

Whatever bogus strength I own up with is completely false.

But despite what I may or may not say, the only secure thing I know about myself is that I am not a bad person.

I hate silence. I hate it when the house is quiet; I hate it when the phone is silent; I hate it when I am silent. I also hate blowing things out of ( Read more... )

I feel like a fool. An imbecile. A total and utter loser ( Read more... )

and then God answered...

A wonderful lady at work has an extra car and is willing to give it to me..!

I see it on Friday!!!

Thank you God!!

<3

Dear God,

I know I ask for a lot, but a car would be great....

Thanks.

-Ashley