hey well no one is commenting so i might just not write anymore
as for feelingz im numb
thoughtz i have none
im fading..... and no 1 carez

"I picture myself as a block of meat
And my left arm is the cutting board."
i made this up :-)

WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF ( Read more... )

Sorry Aisling if my last enetry hurt ur feelingz i just can't put up with the bullshit we put ourselves through, and if i have to put myself through that bull shit to be friendz will you i ll,

cuz its not worth losing you. As for every one else idk if today was an act but i hope it wasn't cuz today was one of the dayz in a while that i actaully ( Read more... )

Ok well i told u guyz i wouldn't hide my feelings so here it goes im sorry if i hurt anyones feelings but im saying what i feel.  ok so katie was having a surpirse party that everyone knew about and was invited too but me and kelly, so everyone says its just a misunderstanding im not stupid if u guyz don't like me just tell me b/c i find it hard to ( Read more... )

hey , well yeah im not gonna hide anything anymore. I haven't been myself lately and i kno it. i am really depressed and cluttered with a bunch of feelingz. Carebear thanx 4 b n there all the time. I rencently saw a ghost in my house and it scared the shit out of me, so im afraid to be alone in my house which i am rite now. "sometimes i just think ( Read more... )

life is slowly coming to a crashing ending. I don't kno how much longer i can pretend to be happy. Ever sense my mom read my journal it seemz like my emotinz have gone down hill but at the same time i am happy? would someone like to try to explain that 2 me? I feel like my life is just passing by me. Then to top this off i get to c sumone i still ( Read more... )

hey guyz,
well i haven't updated in a while i went to the baby shower that was fun im grounded b/c of my progress report! o fun!!!! I can't wait 4 cas's dance well thats all 4 now
xoxo

Did you truely like me at one point?

Or was it all just an act?

Cuz ur a good actress/ actor

Was i not good enough?

How could u pick me up and drop me soo fast?

MY birth day rocked i hang with sum kool cats on friday and i was dancing tonite 2 kiss108 with the strobe lite on !! i got my dital Camera hell yeah!!! I'm so merry rite now but g2g <3 jess