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the past couple of days have been a huge blur. i hate walking into hannaford and seeing brendon. Not because i hate him..or am mad at him. I just feel so awkward. I wish i could just get over him now. well thats a lie. a part of me knows i have to. But the other part of me just doesnt want to. I can honestly say that i never ever thought it would ( Read more... )

I had the worst possible sleep anyone could ever have lastnight. I woke up every 5.2 seconds thinking my cellphone was going off. It felt weird sleeping in my room, and hearing janessa snore. And it felt weird waking up feeling alone. I think it will eventually change sooner or later. Its weird how fast you can get used to things so fast, but then ( Read more... )

After about a month living away from home, i moved back today. It was a mutual decision. Jenn ended up helping me thismorning. I now have my computer back and mtv. It was hard leaving certain things behind, and even though i left certain things behind i still think about them. Im not just talking about a person, but memories and such.
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I remember about this time last year i was this huge wreck, and always getting worked up over stuff. I feel a lot better this year. And on the days i do feel like a huge train wreck brendon is always there and makes me feel a billion trillion times better. I must say ive been doing way better the past 7, almost 8 months. i have accomplished a lot. ( Read more... )

theres a million billion things that have happened since..august? but all awesome, fun, great stuff. I love ALL of my friends, even the friends i dont really talk to as often as i used to ( Read more... )

Your stupid and i really dislike you today. maybe tomorrow ill like you again. but its a long shot. Ive been sick of updating a million times a day so i took a break to get away from reading peoples stupid pointless retarted entrys about how they think they are just sooo fucking cool and the people they hang out with are a million times more cooler ( Read more... )

I love my birthday. and i love my friends. i have amazing friends ( Read more... )

i finally saw tim today! we chilled with travis. Then brendon eventually came over and we all chilled. good times, good times.   After they left we hung out with trevor, kate, and sean. We went to dunkins, and almost hit a cop car as kate was experimenting with brendons car trying to back out of the parking space.on a lighter note, i know how to ( Read more... )

yesterday kate went with me to pick out my tattoo that im getting friday. i love it. its a star. I decided im going to get it on my back. Rachel is doing it. she seems wicked nice, and im excited. Im sorta nervous too. but i know ill be sooo happy after its all done. Bren, jenn and ashley are going with me. maybe that will make me less nervous ( Read more... )