This is where it all falls apart again.

I can't remember where I woke up, so I am afraid to leave this little room. I think i may have died, but I'd be okay in here if this were it.

As someone with eating disorder tendencies, it would be awesome if people close to me stopped judging what I eat not knowing that I haven't in a while. Why does this keep happening? I am allowed to be hungry. I am allowed to eat food you fat fuckers.

I may have just finished the best piece of my life.

31st birthday is the worst since 19th birthday when everyone forgot. They don't just forget now. They don't care. Then they borrow money.

Worked a food tour without eating. Met my boyfriend after telling him via text that I was very hungry. He orders dinner, and I meet him. I find I don't feel well, so I eat half a slice of calzone. We go home, and I nap for two hours. I wake up hungry, but he ate the whole thing. It was not a small feat. Then he acted mad at me for wishing I'd had ( Read more... )

Lovely evening with Neetu and Marc followed by I forgot what I was going to say.

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I was ditched by them, and sent home to drive a rental car with an expired license at drunk thirty.

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He has to know the difference between keeping me waiting for hours waiting and keeping me waiting because he has a meeting. He also has to realize that a meeting ends at some point. I am tired of the "I wish I was there" texts I get from a few blocks away. We live together. Come home if you want to. If you don't, tell me you don't. I will then know ( Read more... )

Love when Sean's work is doing well, and he is happy....only he's not happy. He's cranky, and he takes it all out on me. Sucks. He's leaving for over a week. He was supposed to leave Monday. Then Sunday. Now Saturday. So I thought I had time with him tomorrow. Nope - he has a hair appointment (mind you he said he wanted to get me a haircut two ( Read more... )