Its been a pretty good trip so far. I did everything I wanted to do (well i didnt get shoes, but oh well). I saw Elly, got hella drunk...had duck for the 1st time, it was suprisingly good. Hung out with Sam and Thomas...got hella stoned, twice! That was good. I have to finish her fucking CD's today, so I can get my payment...oooooh yeah baby! I ( Read more... )

I spent all day at school! I went to math tutoring at like 10-10:30. It ended in me crying! I felt so overwhelemed. Im 2 sections behind! We worked on the stuff I did like a week ago that I didnt understand. There is still SO much to go over and understand. I couldnt take it anymore and I cried. Everyone at the learning center is really nice and I ( Read more... )

I cant stop having extraordinary vivid dreams. Mainly about Doug. It's really weird. They dont feel real or anything, they are just very colorful and crazy. I cant really remember them very well. I just remember having weird dreams! It usually happens in the morning. I havent been sleeping well either. Man, I feel so tired all the time and nauseas ( Read more... )

TOday is my 21st birthday. MY mom brought in a big dragonfly balloon attached to a box while I was sleeping. Inside the box was a really cool wonderful fairy to add to my collection! I love it! Then she made me a wonderful breakfast of popovers and apricot syrup and coffee...YUM! I love my momma! Im supposedly going out with DUane tonight. I dunno ( Read more... )

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The poem I wrote originally for class. I don't know if I will trun it in or just keep it as a personal thingie. I feel very sad. I may be preganant. God I hope not. I doubt that I am but there is still that possibility. FUCK! Why me? I am so stressed out. Mother fuckers. I just need to scream and cry. I cried on Duane on Saturday. I didn't think I ( Read more... )

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FUCK! I feel like screaming I think I will AAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH Duane broke up with me last night. I feel sad. I mostly feel alone. I am glad we will remain friends, because he means a lot to me. I feel like I am waiting to die. Like, Marty is leaving in 4 weeks and Duane broke up with me. Nobody is really celebrating my ( Read more... )

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I am sad and angry! I am angry that Duane can go out to dinner with his ex, but he can't go out to dinner with me. He is always telling me how fucking broke he is and then all of a sudden he can go to dinner with Nicole. That shit is not cool. I mean I dont care about the fact that he's going to eat with her. It's cool with me cuz I know that they ( Read more... )