The girl scares me. A lot of girls scare me but this is different. I glimpse through her to a mirror. A backwards mirror shining back. Mirrors scare me. They are one of my symbols. Why is it in her ( Read more... )

"Trust me, I'm telling you stories" - Jeanette Winterson ( Read more... )

I havent' written in years, and that saddened me. But recently I found myself stirring inside, wanting to try to tap into that place ( Read more... )

“You shouldn’t have asked,” I said. “Love doesn’t ask many questions, because if we stop to think we become fearful. It’s an inexplicable fear; it’s difficult even to describe it. Maybe it’s the fear of being scorned, of not being accepted, or of breaking the spell. It’s ridiculous, but that’s the way it is. That’s why you don’t ask-you act. As you ( Read more... )

Things seem really great right now. For a long time, I'd say I haven't had balance in my life. My .. obsessive.. tendancies would have me dive deep into one thing, and other things would go by the wayside. Or some aspect of life would just be crappy. Right now, I see so much positive in life ( Read more... )

“Don't walk in front of me; I may not follow. 
Don't walk behind me; I may not lead. 
Just walk beside me ( Read more... )

so I'm back. Uncomfortable feelings I can't express openly to the more shallow online 'friendships' we now see. Although it's still sharing things online, there are just some fundamental differences between LJ and Facebook - at least for me ( Read more... )

I'm simply a better "one on one" friend than a "group" friend. It's not that I want it to be that way, it just is. I'm starting to develop some friendships here, and so invites to social events are starting to come in ( Read more... )

Years ago, a girlfriend questioned my need for affirmation. Isn't that somewhat what LJ is all about? We share our "innermost" thoughts, open them up for opinion or validation from others ( Read more... )

what's done is done, but this is interesting:

HoroscopeHaving doubts about love may be more to do with memories of past failure than with anything in the present. Much to your chagrin, skeletons in the closet could come out to dance in broad daylight. Although you would rather keep some things private, sharing your vulnerability now with close ( Read more... )