Damn it I hate this.... Omny starts talking to my Ex to accomplish something I cannot.... I don't get it, My ex is okay with relaying information to someone she does not know, but won't say a DAMN thing to me. I am pissed! and then Omny Goes off about how I am pissed that she is talking to my EX, that is so not it!!!! Don't assume! What makes me ( Read more... )

I hate this... this feelling of hatred, remorse, pain, frustration, my longing for my children ( Read more... )

WTF, ACK. What do I dooooooo? I want to fuck, I want to make a cartoon.... I want to make a fucking cartoon. not a cartoon about fucking but a cartoon. a fucking cartoon. about ( Read more... )

Bleh, I hate feelings. I hate the feelings I am having and have had for a long time. I am going crazy! this tourment in my head and in my heart consumes my spirit, which tells me otherwise ( Read more... )

FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK !!! ARGH I AM SO FUCKING FRUSTRATED! I want to just collapse. I have so much shit to do, why do I do it, when nothing seems to work! I am a horrible person. Angela's story she is telling everyone is "chris is a horrible person who did not want a family or wife...." WTF serious? what the hell is she thinking. Now she's going off ( Read more... )

I woke up this morning with the same overwhelming feelling I was kicking my self with last night. My poor wife, she must be going through alot with me. I never wish this upon anyone. It makes me sick inside, head so unclear and foggy. I have done alot of stupid stuff in my life and I feel it has taken its toll. I miss my children and want them very ( Read more... )

This is my journal. I really hate typing the work journal, just does not flow right. heh, yeah so here is the place I am going to post ramblings in hopes that I do not offend my current wife. the ex, well she can burn in hell for all I care... well I take that back, I hope she does well. I pray she opens her heart in regards to the children. they ( Read more... )