deadbeat's gone, and im fine with that. he still calls me, telling me he misses me and all that bull. but the other nite he said i NEED to find someone, so i wont be lonely. well... if it was only that easy, to just pick up where i was before i met him. i tell myself and others that im not or i dont want to meet anyone new or even start sumthing ( Read more... )

last nite sucked!!! i was suppose to be chillin with deadbeat, but thats not how it went down. i could have stayed home, but i didnt. then i got the most annoying news, i hate when people talk about me bad, people like that drive people like me to do stupid things, or think about doing sumthing i shouldnt be thinking about. i just want to get away ( Read more... )

'i can feel it in the air'.......'oh i can FEEL it'......

t i m e .....all i live for......

yea....im gettin better! i dont know why but......its happening! its like sumones sucking all the feelings from my heart, and i just dont care now, i guess you could say. my deadbeat,bum---as he calls himself, caught himself yelling at me last nite about i guess to sum it all up, not ruining my life. so as he sits there drinking all the alcohol he ( Read more... )

whoaaa...havent updated in so long......so here goes i guess....break up after break up, yet i still get involved with one who seems not to care about me...WHYYYY??! do i do this to myself?!!....and yet i still have one love holdin on to me for dear life, he should get out in may...but u know how that goes, i told him he needs to work on himself ( Read more... )

how come whenever you think everythings "okay" it really isnt, people not telling you whats up but they can talk to other people bout it, well i guess its time to face the music and do what i feel has to be done whether i like it or not...

hee hee......damnnnnnnn...its being so long

hey hey hey! i love shopping! i love new stuff! i was planning on going to orlando on my break, BUT my dick boss had to be gay and say no, oh but i can go sum where after new years, when were back in school, such a dumb ass! thats ok, i guess. i still want to go to the florida mall! i should be getting my license in a few weeks, im not gonna make ( Read more... )

so much has happened in the past two weeks. how does someone act such a way, act as your best friend but turn around a tell someone some deep secret you didnt want anyone to know, then talk about you like you were never friends...i dont get it! well i learned from my mistake, and now i know who i can and cant trust. its all good though. some people ( Read more... )