So.. I have thrown up so much in the past two days that it really really hurts.. I dunno.. maybe im trying to make up for being on tour and not being able to purge.. (even though I did a couple times) but ever since i have gotten back I weigh myself at least 6 times a day. I wait to eat until later in the day, and then I totally pig out on ( Read more... )

So.. I am really quite nervous for my consultation for my plastic surgery... I realize that its only a consultation and that the doctor is just going to give me his professional opinion.. but it still stresses me out and makes me quite nervous.. however, at the same time it will be a relief to get the process in motion and it will be something ( Read more... )

So.. I just got back from winning DCI division 2 world championships.. it was an amazing time.. with a lot of trials and tribulations.. but alltogether it was an awesome time ( Read more... )

I have come to some conclusions about me ( Read more... )

So.. this weekend is rather drole!
After doing absolutely nothing today.. not answering calls, and basically shutting myself in. I have decided to make my self a little concoction to help the night go by faster...
couple shots of tequila, v-8 juice, and a couple or 4 pills.. should help sleep come much faster!

Well.. so far the week long break has treated me well ( Read more... )

So... im a bit crazy lately..
hahaha.. enough said

So.. after 5 days in Eager, I am so happy to be home!! I absolutely had such a sucky time while I was there!! however, I did manage to lose those 15 pounds that I gained on the first tour, and then some.. I think I have lost inches rather than pounds on this trip, cause I went shopping today and I was a couple sizes less on pant size!! YES!! and ( Read more... )

Ok.. Im so totally fucking pissed off right now!!!!! at myself and everyone else! mainly because I thought tour went really well, I had somewhat of a good time, the performances were great, & then I get home and weigh myself and ive gained FIFTEEN fucking pounds!!!!!! FIFTEEN!!! thats fucking ridiculous.. I havent really eaten all that much and ive ( Read more... )

So.. after going through financial statements I have become even more depressed than previous!!! im so pissed off at myself. I have become so financially unstable with myself, im almost happy that it gives me an excuse that I cant buy food ( Read more... )