this week has been up and down for me but i am blaming it on PMS. haha. ive been in a decent mood lately though. its not as stressful right now. the only thing im worried about for the next couple days is switching my title from Oregon to WA. thats going to be a pain in the butt and not to mention, a lot of money. blah. =/ nothing much has been ( Read more... )

I woke up this morning with a really sick feeling in the pit of my stomach. no, I do not have the flu. well..maybe.. but what i felt this morning-and still am this very moment- is just an emotion. A very twisted upset emotion. why i am feeling it, i only have a couple of guesses. One of my guesses I do not wish to speak of at this moment but today ( Read more... )

so im just sitting here at jesse's listening to him play his CRAPPY music... hahah jk. its good music. =) we just got back from king's wok. good food. i've been feeling blah all day. its not so good. but oh well. im dealing. I am really dreading work tomorrow. and i dont know why i feel like crap. I just want everything to be okay...

i am so stressed right now. mainly about college. and i am feeling a large amount of anxiety about my future. what will happen? I wish i had a crystal ball that could tell me my future and that everything will turn out okay in the end. so i never have to worry. the feeling of anxiety scares the shit out of me. panic attacks scare the shit out of me ( Read more... )

ohhh nothing new is really happening. worked today. same old. same old. it has been going okay lately though. i think cindy likes me again. she let me have free food today. =) i shouldnt care if she likes me or not but it does make the work atsomophere a lot nicer if she does ( Read more... )

yay! i got accepted to olympic. that was fast. wow. hmm now all i have to do is schedule an appointment to sign up for classes and take that stupid test. yay! excited...but scared...and stressed. blah. oh well. i am beginning to think that life will always be stressful for me. no matter where i am or what i am doing. it always feels like i never ( Read more... )

Well, I have decided between Edmonds or Olympic: even though it's not 100% set in stone, as of this moment, I am applying to Olympic College. =) Exciting, I know. haha. I've decided that I would rather drive to college, than take a ferry every day. and have to worry about catching the bus on the other side and blahblahblah. plus, its cheaper to go ( Read more... )

wow sunday was 100 times better than saturday. work was really fun. it went by fast too which is even better. i started at 7 and was off at 3pm and was actually full of energy. i hurried to the bainbridge ferry and met jay at mcdonalds in seattle. we talked for a bit, then headed off to the chinese restaurant next to the showbox. good food ( Read more... )

I hated being at work today. which explains why im in such a cranky mood. =/ when i clocked on, we were super busy and I saw that the drive thru customers had been sitting there for almost 10 min. and i had to hand out the food and of course, i got all the blame for it. "what the hell? I just got here! how can it be my fucking fault?!?" I wanted to ( Read more... )

how is it even possible that I am the only one that has updated all day? hmm k. I am eating yummy brownie mix. =P Today has been a good good day. especially this morning...=) work was okay. it was busy most entire time but is cool cuz it makes my day go by a little faster...tomorrow will suck...cuz of cindy...blah. but i will get over it. im ( Read more... )