i still feel horrible i still feel lost i still feel worried i still feel like im not sure about this i still feel.....blah i miss him and its horrible having to sit here and not know what hes doing and not being able to talk to him i finally feel it i finally feel hurt and sad and scared and worried and just lost i know that hes gone now i know ( Read more... )

i think the reason that i have not written is cause i wanted people to forget about his right now nobody knows im writing this and nobody will see it like my family probably only sheina.....and thats good i really kinda hate myspace even thought i have an account its just like i dont know i......i feel like crying and truth is iam nobody knows how ( Read more... )

i wonder what im going to do with myself and then i start to cry its not as easy as everyone thinks it is......

thank you so so so so much for everything that you have given me i really truly feel that i could never live without you i love you with all my heart and soul forever and always......

you sat there and laughed at me.....might as well tell me that im not it anymore im not sleeping tonight great right

the question is how do i feel about all this and the truth is i feel so lost i dont even remember my name i feel like even if i try to make it better im always wrong always no matter what and everything that i do from now on is all me no one else but me im all alone even when people say no your not you've got so and so what they dont realize is you ( Read more... )

this morning i woke up at about 6 and watched the sun come up i have never done that before it was nice to finally be alone i love everyone but sometimes i just need peace with myself i need to stop being.....just so blah you know ( Read more... )

november 8th horoscope ( Read more... )

yeah so its been a while i bet you guys are like....wow...its been i while...lol im just in this really happy mood....why you ask well i got to see my hunnie today i did not get to hug him or talk to him but i saw him and it made my day tomorrow i actually get to talk to him and hug him im so excited scared but really excited i was so scared this ( Read more... )

well im tired as always nothing new right and i have a delema on my hands to tell or not to tell that i guess is the question what to do....i dont know its hard to feel whats right