"Hope is always fear
For the pain it may cost
And I have searched for the reason to go on
I’ve tried and I’ve tried
But it’s taking me so long
I might be better off
Closing my eyes"--Sarah Bettens--

"I wanted to believe
As I watched your world
Crumble in your hands
I wanted to believe
As you raised your glass
To your last stand
And I wanted to believe
You ( Read more... )

"you don't need to be so shallow
turn your head prepare to follow"--Camp Kill Yourself--

“Blood on her skin
Dripping with Sin
Do it again
Living Dead Girl”--Rob Zombie--

"you don't need to be so shallow
turn your head prepare to follow"--Camp Kill Yourself--

School...

Art-We watched some gay movie. (sorta fell asleep)

Study Hall-Talked about dead ( Read more... )

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Whoa..today was wicked fun..I hung out with Taylor, Rachel, Amanda. We went to the movies and saw "Breaking All The Rules" and "Van Helsing"(2nd time for me) Anyways, then we were horsing around at her house. Then her dad brought everyone home..and he let me stay longer!! Anyways, I'm sorta watching Helter Skelter. So far, so good.

"THIS IS THE STORY OF A GIRL,
WHO CRIED A RIVER AND DROWNED THE WHOLE WORLD!
AND WHILE SHE LOOKED SO SAD IN PHOTOGRAPHS,
I ABSOLUTELY LOVE HER,
WHEN SHE SMILES!..."--Nine Days--

I feel soo happy. My birthday is only 9 days away!!! Last night besides fighting was fun. Played with Molly. Damn, I miss my childhood. I  have a furby next to my speakers ( Read more... )

Now, that Amanda and I are fighting…ONCE AGAIN. I think I am going to throw her away. She just seems to hurt me in every little way.

Taylor-I love you..I adore you. Your a part of my life..ur there when I need you. I may hurt but I don't know how to handle these feelings. I'm not use to this...I just don't know how to say it...call me later... ( Read more... )

With the absence of eye, I can start to bleed again...
With the color of hearts it seems like you wear right thin
And as it falls from your mouth, it seems like you
needed it more
Well I can still ask for more, I will still ask for more...

Get the fuck out, stay the fuck out
It makes me sick (I'm alright)
Slit wrist theory, stains us all...

Lace me up, ( Read more... )

I have decided to end all friendships. Amanda, Taylor, Gareth, Benny, Becka, Billi, and any one else. I'm also sorry if I push anyone of you away. I rather be a loner and not hurt anyone...then have friends that are there for me but i hurt them. I may talk to you...but i don't consider you a friend.

**Slipknot-Dualtiy**

Push my fingers into my eyes ( Read more... )

( another convo with benny )

( Unwanted )