I am so in love!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Today I came home from work for lunch. I went to check my mailbox and on the way back to my apartment, I heard a familiar voice. It was a neighbor who works with my friend Chris. He was sitting on the balcony with a girl who looked very familiar. I called up to him, "Don't be filling her head with a bunch of your dillusional stories!" They laughed ( Read more... )

With her I am not myself, at least not the self I was ( Read more... )

Yesterday was an interesting day. It started off pretty normal (normal includes the fact that my ex dropped in to see me at 7:15 am after a night of partying and she was only starting!); I took one friend to work then went to another friend's to have breakfast and enjoyed the afternoon there. Nearing five o'clock pm, the friend I had taken to work ( Read more... )

Only 10:08!!! It felt like hours!! Home already and perhaps the best evening I have ever experienced, but why? I didn’t even see Her face!?!?! I can’t believe what just happened! She smells so good, was I dreaming??? No, definitely not! I just walked in the door -I’m very awake and ALIVE!!! It was real ( Read more... )

Okay... so all I ever write about lately is girls. They make me crazy ( Read more... )

This is to try to help me make sense of it all ( Read more... )

I have an obstructed view of the way things really are. I tend to see what I want to see. This has been a means of protection and motivation for me for most of my life. Right now, I can see things I am usually denying. I don’t always like the truth. I enjoy my world of fantasy ( Read more... )

I'm:

DRUNK,
LONELY,
AWAKE,
BUZZED,
CURIOUS,
HORNY... (maybe that's too much info),
RESTLESS,
ACHING (from the inside -out),
HAPPIER,
READY,
NOT SURE.

I have returned from a very fun and eye-opening vacation... but it doesn't satisfy my weary heart ( Read more... )