im falling so hard. you have no idea--this isnt pretentious bullshit, just an honest discovery by a girl who thought these feelings were all over. i dont want to date him-im over being a girlfriend...besides its so much more sexy to be the unattached lover. but let me just tell how wonderful this kid is....last night-oh. you dont even know. first ( Read more... )

so due to saves the day and an adorable boy named josh--things are looking up in my world. im over the emo and poetry-well almost...and i know everythings gonna be...well be. on monday josh grabbed me, and made sure i was ok--then gave me heads up about betsy-the-bitch-from-hell. that was all he had to do-if even that--i know quite a few males who ( Read more... )

ok this sums it all up ( Read more... )

late night entry. talked to travor. other one wont answer. jennis not home. nikoles crying. time to write poetry...though im sure it wont be as beautiful as my stylings the other night..i'll give it a shot anyway ( Read more... )

if only jenni couldve heard this she wouldve pissed her pants-ask me to perform it sometime for you babe-k ( Read more... )

for so long i thought, no, known that all i needed was simply to get laid. thats why im restless, thats why i have a short attention span, thats why im unhappy. well happiness continues to hide from me, even after the act. yeah-another party broke out in my room friday-not my idea, and somewhat out of my control-i spent the whole evening with this ( Read more... )

ok-im gonna do it. i wrote jenni this really cheesy poem when i was bored in sight singing tonight. its packed with inside stuff, and im fully aware of the schmaltz so no body-better laugh. at least its sincere ( Read more... )

last night i made a very stupid choice. i paid for it then, and im paying for it now. it hurts so bad when you fuck up a choice youre proud of-maybe thats it. good news: best friend jenni duke is now on lj. bad news: after reading one of her entries i now feel almost even worse about that stupid phone call. when i think about jenni so upset about ( Read more... )

this stupid lj has proved thus far to be far too taxing on my emotions than its acctually worth. when i surf this sight its like im addicted and i dont know why. i found someones picture today-by total accident-tho 'dork face' will probably think im a psych-but he's done pleanty a stalking in his time to make me not give a fuck. i hate what i feel ( Read more... )

38 days till home ( Read more... )