hey. I totally feel your pain. I was a size 9 in senior year of highschool... and i felt HUGE. i dieted down to size seven. lost like 40 lbs in two months. 180lb s -140 lbs. and my friggen mom was in competition with me. Instead of just accepting the fact that i had weight inssues she had to  throw some gasoline into the fire. I ended up Overdosing ( Read more... )

 I look from the sideslines as well. most of the people that i judge are not people i know, that i will never know.
I have no intrest in being friends with them. its just my way of coping. i HATE going out of my house. If i didn't judge them, then i think i would have back to back panic attacks. i think it keeps my mind busy while i'm out and about ( Read more... )

... however. i dont think i'd jump off a bridge. something simple. quick. painless.
in my sleep. drug overdose. alcohol intoxification mixed with some controlled substances that your not suppose to take with liquor.

I'm feeling a little morbid and suicidal tonihgt. I have two kids. they kinda keep me going. but since my dad killed himself in 2005 ( Read more... )

i hate my family. and i hate holidays
no one - not a single family member-  called to say hello today.
I can't stand that i am not wanted by my family.

my father should have never died.
my mother should have never moved
 my life should have never turned upside down

I've got a quick second on here. Gregg woke up so i gotta go get him ( Read more... )

1. Your Middle Name: kristen
2. Age:23
3. Single or Taken: taken
4. Favourite Movie: liar liar
5. Favourite Song or Album: i will remember you
6. Favourite Band/Artist: goo goo dolls  go buffalo!
7. Dirty or Clean: clean
8. Tattoos and/or Piercings: normal ear peircing
9. Do we know each other outside of LJ? noppers
10. What's your philosophy on life? I'd ( Read more... )

we are pregnant! and i haven't used this since gregg was born!
we are due in september this is going to be so exciting!

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