What I'm thinking Right Now...

[gutterballkid]

I want a better face.
I want a better body.
I want to be beautiful.
I want a better life.
Or just a different one.

I'm not saying this to get your pity.
I don't want your "you ARE beautiful" comments.
I just want to say this right now.

I want to go away.

Comments

[wondertone]

I have moments like this too. I'm not offering pity. I'm just saying that I understand how you feel. The ideals of beauty and happiness are so unobtainable in today's world. Recently, I've come to realize that fuck what other people think, I will be happy in my own way. This of course doesn't mean that you should always be happy, or never sad. These are simple human emotions, and denial of some would make the others much less special.

[gutterballkid]

Yesm, (typo that NEEDED to stay) but this feeling of not being good enough never leaves, except when I'm drunk...are you telling me to be an alcoholic? Score.

[wondertone]

Oh, so you want to be an alcoholic?

[gutterballkid]

Yesm, (best typo ever) but this feeling of never being good enough never leaves me...except when I'm drunk. I don't want to be an alcoholic.

[clairefrances]

I'll refrain from making 'you ARE beautiful' comments, but I will have to say that if you went away (even if you went to Duncan for the weekend), I would cry in a dark corner somewhere and mourn the fact that my one friend had left me.
Sorry, was that a little depressing? I meant to say "Miranda, you ARE beautiful. Beauty is in the eye of the beer holder (according to a QUOTEUNQUOTE funny sign at my work.) Whatever. I've had too many brownies.

[clairefrances]

EDIT: holder,"

[gutterballkid]

I want brownies! Ew. I think I had a bite of a "special" browny (fuckit! I'm calling it browny!) on Hallowe'en. That's shit.

[evin]

<3

Don't leave. I'll miss you.

[gutterballkid]

You can come too.

[mr__chips]

ditto