to dream of a raven means 'betrayal, disharmony, misfortune, and death. the death may be a symbolic death in that it signals an end to a habit or phase in your life ( Read more... )

lately, this one question has been on my mind: why didn't i realize how much i like art until now? it seems so obvious now thinking about who i've always been drawn to, and what i've always been drawn to. thinking about how i think. it's interesting to discover how unaware we can be of ourselves.

today the egyptian woman i sit next to in french class told us the story of how she met her husband. she told us she met him one day at an event in the town's church. she was sixteen and he was seventeen. in egypt conversations between boys and girls were frowned upon, but this boy was a friend of her cousins and so that day she heard him speak. ( Read more... )

today i will find out if my road to academic recovery will be easy or difficult. please please please let everything go my way today. if anybody sees this please send good thoughts my way.

i've decided that making lists of goals is a really good idea and will help me with the number one goal of getting my shit together. i've started making myself to do lists every day. it makes me feel very accomplished and like a functioning person when i can cross things off the list ( Read more... )

there's this boy i'm in love with (unrequitedly) and he has this way of making me feel like a terrible person. he makes me want to be a better person. today he brought up the fact that i cheated on a boyfriend awhile ago and i found myself trying to justify it, even though i knew then and now that it was terrible. i felt especially awful because he ( Read more... )

just watched lars and the real girl and it was really good. made me want to move to a small town, although i doubt there is any town in this world that has such accepting people.

now i have a headache though so maybe i'll watch some star trek and go to sleep.

uhhh why can't i come up with any good ideas? i have to have the first chapter of a novel done by next monday and so far i have zilch. boo. i'm also in some sort of weird battle against heat i have no control over. maybe hell is slowly taking over my life.

back to staring at a blank page.

i can't wait until i have internet at home again. mostly because i have to download season five of the wire, but also it's going to suck to have to come to school to do internet related stuff. like access all my psych notes. i finally finished reading atonement but there's no way i'm going to be ready for the presentation i have to give on thursday ( Read more... )

just woke up from a really weird dream. i had been out all day and was supposed to be at my grandma's but for some reason i had to pass my dad's house before i could go. i noticed there were a few strange cars in the driveway so out of curiosity i went inside. the lights were really dark and it was sort of smoky...there were pink balloons ( Read more... )