So my previous entry was most of what I had to say, but this one is the conclusion, I guess you can say. Anyways, it's kind of just come up in my mind more so than it did before, but it's come and gone in my mind. This particular thought. It's a painful thought, I might add. It's the thought of knowing I wasn't always "That Special Someone" in her ( Read more... )

I can't believe I haven't written in this thing since SEPTEMBER! But, what's crazier, is September doesn't feel like it was that long ago. But it was. It was 5 months ago. And my goodness so much has happened. Well, I got my GED. I passed! The first try too. Kim and I...we went through a lot. More than I ever want to ever again! It's been a ( Read more... )

sometimes, and trust me, i don't know why...but...i get so pissed off lately. i use to not be this way. i mean, i've always had a short fuse...at times. but the way things have gone lately have just been...leaving me with a sour taste in my mouth. and believe me, i do NOT like it. sometimes i hate it so much that i inflict my own pain on myself to ( Read more... )

well, today was the first day back at school. and my first day back at safekey. it's such a nice school, the staff are the kind staff i'd want to work with. the lead is anal and strict and i like that. she has a system and she wants people to follow it. i'd much rather have that than have some lead who barely has any idea and doesn't care what you ( Read more... )

well, it's been about 4 months since i met this girl named Kimberly. things have been up and down. when things get good, they get bad soon after. but it hasn't always been that way. at times it was very great. other times, it felt like it was all coming to an end. through the weeks and months prior to this weekend, we've gone through a lot. worked ( Read more... )

so, i really need a PS2. i really, really miss playing my PS2 greats. like Manhunt and San Andreas. it's so strange, i'm so strange. i listen to my song and if i close my eyes, can feel it. if i see screenshots, i see it. if i think hard enough...it's like i'm there. i miss you. anyways, the summer sucks. i hate summers soo much. they're so lame. ( Read more... )

so, yeah i want to get back into writing in this thing regularly. i've been reading over all of my entries and it's inspiring me to do so. anyways, last i night i played a bunch of GTA IV. it was, as always, amazing! i really need to get a PS2 so i can play manhunt and san andreas and stuff and yeah and ok what? anyways, kim is awesome.

jacob.

so last night, i opened up to someone. and this someone is a pretty awesome person. anyways, i opened up about my love for things. stuff like Manhunt, GTA...the usual stupid stuff. anyways, i felt dumb because to me, and what i opened up about, means literally...the WORLD to me. and when i take my mind back to those times, it can really hurt. it ( Read more... )

earlier this week, i almost lost my job. it was pretty scary. the thought of not working under my current employer was an enticing thought, but losing my income was scary as all hell. so now, i'm just sitting in my boxers listening to the Cure. of course, right? i've actually been falling in love with the Kiss Me album. haha. i love it sooo much. i ( Read more... )

Hey, it's been a long time since I've written in this thing. I've been meaning to, but sometimes i just get out of the mood of writing. anyways, i've been fighting serious insomnia. and it's really getting old. last night though, i got some sleep which felt great. but i just want it to be that way for good now. anyways, i've been doing semi-alright ( Read more... )