I wake up.

Middle of the night.

Wait.

Its coming.

Not emotional ready.

But I never quit am.

So i ran.

And ran.

I cry.

Because of Him.

I cry on a whim.

Its never called for.

My emotions just pour out.

Everywhere.

Anywhere.

These emotions need to be smothered.

So please, just take a cover.

And smother.

My feelings.

And make me

A normal

Human Being.

I see him.

For the first time in months.

I can not help but feel feelings for him again.

There is.

One.

PROBLEM.

He is straight.

Still i know i can turn him to my side.

To where i reside.

In my sexuality.

So.

We talk.

Take a walk.

And then.

Once again.

I remember.

He is straight.

No debate.

I can not wait.

To get in his pants

You look at me

See a shell.

Of a man.

Through that small window in the dungeon.

You see ME.

Seeing everyone on the outside.

Makes me feel Small.

And shallow.

So.

One Day.

You are imprisoned with me.

We have a long.

Deep.

Conversation.

And later.

Do the dirty.

We use sign language.

So nobody knows whats going on.

You.

Are.

&&

will

always be

my life.

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intimate.

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It is late at night.

Midnight is only around the corner.

I'm lurking around your house, in a black uniform, so that I blend in with the darkness and can not be seen.

I manuver closer to your bedroom window

Which greets me with a bright light

AND a view of YOU

Doing things you think nobody can see.

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I feel a warm breeze.

It feels good to me.

I also smell, the fresh scent of cheetos.

Its all too good to be true.

This is the first time ive been at peace.

I hear a weezing sound.

Im alarmed.

I feel as if someones watching me.

I quickly put my pants back on while laying down.

Slowly.

I turn my head.

Slowly.

Its my brother Tony.

He was the breeze.

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Hello all. This is obviously Mary, and i am oh so sorry i havent written in such a long time. I have been in boarding school. My parents found out i was participating in ungodly acts. Not only was i having sex with both genders, but i was also caught giving the neighbor boy a lumpkin in my bathroom. It's not my fault my father decided to instal a ( Read more... )

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