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I feel as if....
I feel as if my heart has been ripped out and my soul has been severed from my body.
I feel betrayed, naive, alone, cold, and numb.
I have never in my life felt as hurt as I do now. Hopefully I never will again.
I don't want to be here anymore
I don't want to feel anymore
I don't want to think anymore
I don't want to hurt anymore
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its summer
It is summer. I went to school on senior skip day, did nothing, came home, visited my baby, practiced for my recital, then spent more time with kyle. he's the best :)
then i saw star trek on imax. totally sweet.
and now my elbow hurts and my head aches. and im tired. and i miss kyle. and my stomache hurts.
and i miss kyle. and i still miss him.
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venting
I cannot even begin to utter my deepest despisiton of you. How is it that you have the absolutely perfect son who has a 4.1, is so loving towards you, and never does anything wrong and yet you treat him like complete and total shit. It's people like you that make me want to shoot myself. Of all people...he doesn't deserve this. How is it that you ( Read more... ) -
We Compliment Each Other Like Colors<3
Could I ever express in the slightest form my deepest affections for you?
Sometimes I seem to take everything good in my life for granted.
My family, my friends, and most importantly...you.
But at times such as this, is when I realize how amazingly lucky I am.
It feels ungodly amazing to realize that I am in your arms.
That you are mine.
To know that I ( Read more... ) -
things i'll never know
And I don't want the world to see me
'cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am.
Its spring. Its raining again.
I hate the rain. It reminds me of so many things that are better left forgotten.
but are they really?
Sometimes I dwell in the pain for a while, remembering times when ( Read more... ) -
am i anything?
Theres a thousand empty laughs and smiles she hides behind
and each passing day is just a chance to be somebody else
I wonder how many people realize that I wrote that about myself?
It relates to me and describes me so much.
Every day I wake up and I feel like a different person.
Somedays I feel so alive; I feel so happy, so pretty, so confident that I ( Read more... ) -
love
I am terrified. Is it so wrong?
There are times at which I want to smack myself for not treasuring every single moment that I am with you, for not remembering everytime that I am in your arms, for not being everything that I can be.
Then there are times at which I just wish to end it, because it scares me more than anything in my life ever has ( Read more... ) -
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Is this simply another disillusionment? Everything seems far too good to be true. I am so happy that I can barely contain myself. He's so perfect. not perfect in the sense that he is flawless, but in the sense that his flaws are something that I seem to look past; that everything else about him is so amazing that nothing else matters.
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contemplating
This is like an addiction.
To let my words freefall across this page, so free of judgement of wandering eyes and curious bystanders.
Like being free for once in my life to say everything I want to say, to actually feel.
Upon seeing me today, I am wondering if there was even the slightest tinge of regret; remorse ebbing at your mind. It seemed to hit ( Read more... ) -
& the sun will set for you....
Is it wrong to be mad?
Is it wrong to feel so worthless, so unwanted, to wish that I could just dissapate like a grain of sand into the ocean? To wish I could just get so far away from here, this place, this person and everything I know? Because this is how I feel. I am always cast aside.
I was there, I gave you my hand, my heart, and now I am ( Read more... )