I regret it all
I wish I could take it all back
now im stuck with this forever
I want it all to go black

Im done, Im tired
I give up
I dont wanna try anymore
I can't live with this
so its time to say goodbye

my actions, the consequences
Im not strong enough

i took my chances. and destroyed something that could of been wonderful ( Read more... )

My boyfriends taking me to New York for Valentines day. Thats so sweet! Its gonna be freezing there. Im really excited.

My little brother wants me to buy him a grill for christmas. And he wants me to get one for myself with pink diamonds in it. I dont think I can pull that look off. Not while im working in beverly hills and living in westwood.

If I could close my eyes and never wake up. I would be fine with that ( Read more... )

Im thinking about moving to west hollywood in January. Its close to my work, and its not too bad of a neighborhood ( Read more... )

Just when things start to become perfect, everything is back to how it used to be. Why is this such a suprise to me?

Im Home sick.

Lots has happened since I last wrote in my journal. Lets see...where do I begin?? I went to vegas in September with my mom, dad, and brothers. It was really fun. I got lots of new make-up and juicy couture clothes. After that I went to Sacto for a couple days. Then I came back to LA. My boyfriend and I came up with a plan for me. Im going to save ( Read more... )

So I decided on Bruces Halloween costume:

http://store1.yimg.com/I/the-puppy-shop_1860_11945105

Its perfect....exactly what I was looking for!