It's 10 something in the morning and already I'm shakey and scared to tears, like I'm going to break.
Sometimes I completely hate the internet and wish it didn't exisit but maybe it's me and I need more self restraint. It's always this dance of is she talking about meI hate that this means so much. She's leaving. And I want it to be a good leave ( Read more... )

I love my parents a lot. But they like me more than I like them.

This has led to attachment issues.

I'm sort of warply, feeling like watercolors and crying. I love Tor so much; I don't want her to be going to New Jersey. I'd rather my parents were spending the next week in New Jersey instead of her.

I'm scared, so fucking scared.

So there I was, waiting in the plaza for Claudia, so I decided to call L and see if she was home yet. I knew she was getting home today, but not when ( Read more... )

Technically, I'm fine. I've been exercising, my house is looking beautiful and close to completion, I've been eating enough (perhaps too much), getting my history shit done.
But life's not based on technicalities, is it?

I'm really not ok right now.

So, there I was, walking to the bus stop from school. I had on these sort of baggy pants and I kept having to twitch them up because my belt was already as tight as it would go. And there were these two cute guys walking behind me to the bus stop. It was just one of those things I was aware of ( Read more... )

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To Do List:

Get a job
Be mature and responsible without losing sense of fun
Clean room
Buy new deodorant, as current deodorant reminds me too much of a bedroom in Berlin
Make Joy a birthday card

1-4 Roma
5-6 Siena
7-9 Parma
10 Milano
11 Orly
12-16 Les Eyzies
17-24 Bourg-de-visa
25-28 ParisNote: Photographs aren't up yet,as I haven't connected to my camera, and it's going to be a lot of work. There might be exerpts from Paris, too, if I have time. As it is, I feel like I'm exposing a lot of me in all of this. There's a lot there, so I'm ( Read more... )

it's getting late enough for self-indulgent and brutal honesty.

I'm home back here.