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I get it.
Living with chronic depression not really going to be a walk in the park especially unmedicated. I knew that when I decided I really didn't want to be medicated. It still exhausts me. Then heaven forbid John is being a normal being and not fixating on making me happy and I crash. Things are just so crazy at the house and everyone is so stressed and ( Read more... ) -
yay
John and I have actually figured a date for our Wedding. So I suppose thats good. Just tired. Its my period this week. Aaaand just feeling tired and whiny. However I want to give John and Dom space as Dom is Johns best friend. Aaaand he is leaving next year. So I am trying to be good girlfriend... But. I was trying to do shit on my laptop, draw and ( Read more... ) -
The real entry for right now... aka... obsess and paranoi... *not word making it one* about new f?
Well really... the entry before was real. That was just durring class. This is actually how I'm feeling now TADAAAA FABULOUS! *sighs* anywho... My brain is tired... like. I need a fucking shot or 3 tired. *curls up in a little ball* I have not been sleeping lately... Which is actually related to my mental exhaustion.... as opposed to vice versa? if ( Read more... ) -
Wedding Tables? Seriously Gane?
Yes. I really have an excell sheet where I am planning wedding tables already. Its kind of ridica-craz-isane *nods* But I am excited. And I find it fun to think about that stuff ^^. Lol. Yeah.... Craaaazy lot of people But :3 Not everyone will be able to come etc. But excited... yeah -
:3 Bohahah. *squee!*
I am so excited. I haven;t really stopped... Though all the energy is making me more neurotic about this weekend... I'm nervous about the birthday >< But more. I told Shannon I would see her... And I think she is taking me up on that. Which works to a degree... John has to bake cookies so I wasn't going to see him till later... >< However. After ( Read more... ) -
OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG!
:3 I got engaged. Its the ring I looked at. OMGOMG! :3 It sucks its too small.... Stupid fattiness! >8 O...But we are gonna resize it... But zomg! Tried to tell most of my family... I am so excited... GAH!Amazing birthday so far. WHO KNEW?! -
I SO WON!
In comp lit, the test has been changed from my Bday... kinda a win situation. Plus won a flashdrive... Maybe today won;t be so bad? -
oh AND!
Johns had this terrible little girl flirting with him, who even had the nerve to try to friend me on facebook! And he said he kept trying to shut her down and it just kept making me so mad. She was like throwing herself at Johns feet and I hate that. I had to deal with that with Corey... and John deals with it better than Corey... but it was still ( Read more... ) -
... AND!
And I still want to go to BoraBora... *shifty eyes* I am very excited about this carp. That John is actually discussing and figuring out with me... And really weddings... giant excuse to busy myself with lists and the like *happy sigh* sadly... I was so excited... So kind of have done everything I feel comfortable doing without being a psychopath > ( Read more... ) -
Hrrrrm... o.O
So... feeling interesting lately. I obviously have been kind of obsessed with wedding stuff now John has agreed to wait 3 years. He's sad he was so nervous. But really... I am kind of glad... I am a princess. I want a dream wedding. And now we are actually talking about it seriously... Now I am making it less psycho dramatic and trying to figure ( Read more... )