i keep forgetting that my perception of reality is different from other peoples. so when i do or say something and people take it at face value and i assume that theyd look deeper into why i say what i say, i forget people dont do that. so it makes me look like a shallow fool. when really in my world, it is they that dont put any effort into ( Read more... )

i slept all day today. i havent done that in years. years. but today i got home at 5am after a kind of fail night, so today i just slept. didnt get a damn thing accomplished. im going to forgive myself for that ( Read more... )

ive become dull. i have no more stories and my memoir stops here. its a shame really- it was going to be a bestseller ( Read more... )

school has made me boring. im running out of stories. idk if that's a good thing or a bad thing, though... one of my biggest fears is becoming boring. this better be a phase ( Read more... )

a cute girl and i fucked over the weekend. thats wat it was- not made love, not have sex, we didnt even really screw- we fucked. it was a one time thing with a slut while i was hammered drunk. i had fun but will probably not do it again with her. but i mean, she was a good time- im gonna gonna completely rule it out. if it happens again, it ( Read more... )

i have too many thoughts. i have problems organizing them. my fingers cant type as fast as i think, so i miss a lot. lets try to keep up ( Read more... )

i got sushi with her today. this is a win tradition. but im realizing that she's a real person. that sounds wierd, but it's true. to me, she was kind of a superhuman- invinsible and unstoppable. yes, to an extend, that's true. but i invited her out and she told me she needed "me-time." i forgot that us extreme extroverts need that every once ( Read more... )

i tried to rape somebody again. this is really becoming a problem ( Read more... )

i just got back from philly. this was supposed to be a few sober days. and it so was. skye and jim wanted to go head to head with me, but i demanded not to. for that im proud of myself. maybe thats not a big deal for most folks (and in all honesty it shouldnt be) but its kinda a step in the right direction for me ( Read more... )

i feel strange as of late. last night was not good. i called the fbf and i could kind of tell what she was thinking, but she handled it so well. love her. and i think she loves me too ( Read more... )