It's crazy how my life has come completely full circle. Reading over my last entry from almost a year ago, i felt odd knowing that those same words and feelings are a part of me today. I came on here in the hopes of getting out all of this pent up emotion that i have from the last few days, weeks, months of denying feeling certain things but ( Read more... )

I dont think i have ever been surrounded by so many people and felt so alone in my life. This summer must be meant to teach me something because everything around me that was so stable seems to be crumbling. My best friend is gone. He was what i woke up in the morning for, the one person that seemed to make it all worth while and i cant wrap my ( Read more... )

Life is hectic ( Read more... )

I hate college. It's not so much the actual college that i hate, but i hate the fact that being in college means that im not in high school. I didnt particularly love high school, but i know i loved the people. The people here just arent the same. I guess its because its so early, or because i flip-flop and move around and dont have one "clique" ( Read more... )

I feel like i cant do this anymore. I dont have what it takes. Im so stressed and i dont even know why, and he's supposed to make me happy but whatever it is we're doing is just making me more upset. Im giving up, but i dont exactly know how to quit everything ( Read more... )

Im talking to all of these people and none of it matters because none of them are you. What the fuck has this come to, like honestly why do i actually care so much about you and our stupid relationship. Its so on and off and hot and cold, why would i ever rely on you to begin with? This wasnt meant to be an angry post but im just so upset about ( Read more... )

god, i am all too aware how overdue this is ( Read more... )

I feel like an idiot. I feel like i can never get it right when i try to understand whats going on in everyone elses head. Im pretty sure i just attract people who are just as bad - if not worse - at committing as i am. Its actually pathetic that i care so little about things in order to keep everything light and happy that i wind up not caring ( Read more... )

I know this is a serious moment of weakness, but i really want to ask him to semi. After all, he is basically one of my best friends and i am attracted to him and im pretty sure we would have a good time. Fuck, i am so goddamn weak. Although, we've had our long line of issues, some lasting quite a long time and right now isnt exactly our hottest ( Read more... )

I am so sick, and nothing seems to make sense anymore. I am done typing like an idiot; which, in some way, i figure was me trying to sort things out in short and simple sentences. Not. I didnt actually think about why i fucking wrote like that. Anyway, i seem to be so tired all the time, and it sucks because i can barely function. I've lost my ( Read more... )