so marriane inspired me to do an early christmas special in my live journal today. i just really fraggen love christmas. and mostly im really excited. it may seem far away for some..but im pretty sure that september seemed like two days ago..so it will be here any minute now. also..my store's had its chritmas ishnat all over the place already, ( Read more... )

so wow...when i look back and read all my entrys from approximetely all of last year..ughh. i pretty much felt like shit for a whole lot of time there..and for what? but i still dont regret anything. everything happens for a reason and the reason is that now i found a boy who treats me like gold and who i can finally do the same. i appreciate him ( Read more... )

and six more days left of summer. once again..it went by way too fast. i worked way too much..but am really not sure where on earth all of my money went?? didnt hang out near enough with people that i should have..or people at all..pretty much a big social reject this summer ( Read more... )

For the longest time
If you said goodbye to me tonight
There would still be music left to write
What else could I do
I'm so inspired by you
That hasn't happened for the longest time

Once I thought my innocence was gone
Now I know that happiness goes on
That's where you found me
When you put your arms around me
I haven't been there for the longest time

Maybe ( Read more... )

ohhh man. so not even two days left of school and just ask me if i still have two isu's undone? the answer is yes. yes yes yes! ughhhhh. and instead of doing them...id seem to rather sit on my floor and think about how stupid i am for not doing them?? so yea..thats awesome. and my math exam review? dont even get me started. i screwed up pretty ( Read more... )

well..i guess things are a bit better than my last entry..actually..just different. still not exactly sure what to do..but things seem to be getting way clearer. i keep rehersing what im going to say to you..even writting it down to help..but i just need to get some balls first. still scared of making the wrong decision..but im starting to see that ( Read more... )

i honestly dont know what to do anymore..and it seems like no matter i do do..either decision turns out to be the wrong one. i think i just have to pretty much do nothing..because everytime i try and explain myself..i dont get things out the way they should be and it seems to just screw things up even more. i just dont want you cooling off thinking ( Read more... )

so yep..alyssa fucked things up again. whats new pretty much eh? i honestly cant do this anymore. i wish i could just stop caring. but i think i wish you didnt care about me even more. you know i dont deserve you..specially after last night. i told you i would hurt you from the beggining and of course..i proved my point. i really wish i could think ( Read more... )

so..uhm..been awhile ( Read more... )

weather actually has such an effect on people. think to back..way back last week when it was all sunny and such. how much better moods were we all in all the time? and now..rainy..blaaaah. PLUS..that just means i cant jump on you know what, which i actually think puts me in a worse mood. i just wanna walk somewhere. my house is the worlds most ( Read more... )