i have involved myself with the wrong people for so long that the idea of meeting a nice guy was unimaginable. i hardly know what to do here. i have met someone, though i don't know him well, who is completely different from all of the other men i have ever included in my life ( Read more... )

i must be addicted to disappointment. OR i am so subconsciously terrified of actual commitment that i trick myself into falling for people who are obviously temporary ( Read more... )

I hate biology and my life. I hate men. They
Are all the same. Garbage clogging the gutter that flows to the bay- men.

So. I guess it's better to be disappointed now than really disappointed later. But damn it. Why not me?

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so everything hurts. everyone around me is hurting me. nothing i do ends up feeling good or right. people act like they're willing to help out... comfort me... give me support because i really need it right now. but this support is only available when it's convenient for them. i feel like shit. i've spent five years chasing someone who didn't ( Read more... )

a good excuse, a reason to cry and drink too much ( Read more... )

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