learning how to breathe, learning how to fly...

[h_wingheart]

dear diary:

i've finally come to terms with many things in my life. with help from conversations with God, family, friends... things seem to get clearer with every drop of soul revitalizing wash they shed upon me.

the largest realization, and perhaps the hardest, is the fact that i am as alone as i have allowed myself to be. i still am not open

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[lilchicharon]

I'd stick you in my armpit but I would feel guilty for making you sick off of the stench that usually emanates. Although I suppose if it were a serious moment, making you throw up would take your mind off of what was bothering you. I'm sorry if you didn't want a reply and frankly you can take it off you like. I don't know what I could say to help except that feeling down sucks and is a waste of time, seriously. In my experience, it's exhausting to feel sad or alone because in the bigger picture you aren't. I've found that the energy that is put in looking at all the microscopic holes in you soul could be better used to see larger beauty. To me, the moon wouldn't be as great without its craters and imperfections despite how luminous it looks against the vast darkness that surrounds it. I don't want you to be sad. It worries me that you portray a happy person and yet inside you hurt. I've done that and I think it makes what you feel amplified. You have a lot of people that love you (me included). I would rather you call me in

thanks chay

[h_wingheart]

*laughs* i wouldn't mind stench so long as it's comforting ^_~ i agree with you however, life really sucks when you're down, and it's a big waste of my time and energy to even get to this point. i spent my first night crying... and everytime i woke up cried. now, as a consequence of that, i'm sick because i allowed my immunity to weaken. -_-; it's so exhausting; you're so right. i'm very tired of this feeling, that whenever i go through a bump or dip, i have to push myself through it

Re: thanks chay

[lilchicharon]

I hope your mother gets better soon. She'll be in my prayers.

Sorry about the dust in your eyes. I can be a little clumsy with the dust...

Take care okie! Maybe if you and Kimbo aren't doing anything later this week we can play basketball or something?

Much mahal.