My life is really good. Especially considering where I was four years ago. I realized this tonight quite suddenly while driving home from a friend I've known since high school's house. Same friend, same road home, same car, totally new me. In my three going on four years at college I have gained respect for myself. That might sound weird I mean ( Read more... )

I am a worrier. All I do is worry. I feel like everything in my life is contingent upon decisions I make now...and I'm making the wrong ones. I have to remind myself the good things in my life now I wouldn't have if I had done things in my past differently. If I had gone to a different school I wouldn't of taken the road trip with K and began my ( Read more... )

10 days. In 10 days he leaves for 6 months. I find myself crying as I run on the treadmill, unable to deal with this burden. The man I love and day-dream about marriage and children with is going to another country for 6 months. 6 whole months. I am panicking. Picking fights about nothing, drinking red wine and crying over the telephone. We have ( Read more... )

I woke up around 10ish after long strange dreams about travelling to Boston which wasn't actually Boston but a foreign country. I wasn't visiting either of my two friends that live there but other people that happened to know my friends ( Read more... )

reasons why i love him

-he bought me roses
-he brought me my toothbrush in bed so i could stay naked
-he likes when i whine and gives into me
-cooks me eggs every morning
-cooked me pancakes while i slept and brought them to me in bed

Last week I went to beach week with 16 of my nearest and dearest friends (take that as a pun or as a factual statement, truth is I'm not sure which it is). The boyfriend and I for the first time in the 6 and a half months we have been dating annoyed one another. Some days it seemed everything he did just drove me crazy. I think we work better alone ( Read more... )

My mom mailed me a letter today apologizing for not being able to help me in high school. High school was rough, full of every drug you can name, and seemed to never end. Clearly it has had a great impact on my college life. In her letter she wrote how proud she was of me, for going to Australia, for being able to move and make new friends and ( Read more... )

Nearing the end of my third year of college, in the midst of exam/Hell week, I can't seem to accept the fact that this is happening, this is my life. My roommate has this great quote in her profile, "Dont feel guilty if you dont know what you want to do with your life... the most interesting people I know didnt know at 22 what they wanted to do ( Read more... )

Well, it's been awhile. My life has become a fantastic blur. I can't keep up. It's mostly good. 5 months with the boy in two weeks, our relationship is damn near perfect. My school work is another story. Research methods is a pain because the professor doesn't teach and I feel at a total loss. Organic is killer because Chemistry is pure Hell to ( Read more... )

Life is terrific right now. In fact, so terrific I'm depressed thining about how I will react when it's not so terrific ( Read more... )